I can’t cope

I’m so glad @tyme. I have been thinking of you.

I had my Pdoc appointment today.

How'd you go with the appt @Captain24 ?

Was it a tough one?

It was confronting. @tyme. I have ADHD and ASD! I start medication tomorrow for the ADHD

Wow! That's big news! How's the med going to affect your other meds @Captain24 ? I heard that adhd meds and bipolar isn't the best?

They work ok together it’s just that stimulants can cause mania so I have to watch @tyme.

She started to tell me signs to watch for and then she said that I probably already know and I just laughed and said yes.

I knew the adhd would come about and Jynx did suggest ASD but I’m a little unsettled about that one. There is no medication for it. I’m guessing that my psych will have an idea of things I can try to work with my behaviours but I only see her twice before she is off for 8 weeks.

Wow.... it's really a lot to take in @Captain24 ! How do you feel about it all. Seems so sudden.

The ASD part too. It's a lot to take in.

I hope the meds are okay.

I’m not sure @tyme. I really need my psych right now but I’m just going to have to get the most out of the next 2 appointments to get me through.

It is a lot. I guess I’ve been living with it for years so it’s just my normal. But it explains why I’m not a nice person and not very caring. I need to work on that now I know.

The meds are supposed to calm down my brain and let me think clearly. It’s something I can take everyday or just days that I need it, like work days. So it’ll be trail and error.

As a reframe of: It is a lot. I guess I’ve been living with it for years so it’s just my normal. But it explains why I’m not a nice person and not very caring. I need to work on that now I know.

The reframe would be that you THINK you are not a nice person and not very caring.

From my interactions with you, I think you have a very big heart. So much so that you get hurt because you care too much about not hurting others - you get hurt to prevent others from getting hurt.

That's more than what I offer in real life! @Captain24

Bloody reframes! 😂 😜 @tyme

I don’t know. I do put others first. But I think it’s because I don’t do rejection very well and don’t want them to feel rejected. The friend I was with the second day while I was away was talking about her cat and how she thought she was going to die but was just a uti. I then started taking about something that happened the day before with out really showing any compassion. I did the nods in what I think was all the right places but struggled with the caring part. I feel like that was not a nice thing to do.

The Pdoc said it wasn’t that I wasn’t a nice person I just have different behaviours than others. But I of course reframed that into ‘I was right’

LOL. Sounds like you use reframing in the opposite way @Captain24 !

Look, to be honest, we all have our own strengths and weaknesses - ASD/ADHD or not. And we all just learn to navigate life.

In the past, I hated that I was so stupid and different, but later I learnt to accept it, then like it, then embrace it, and now I am on the cusp of being able to celebrate the differences. It's a journey.

Did you tell your parents?