I can’t cope

Thank you for this afternoon @Ru-bee

I hope you feel a little less tired tomorrow and get to take Toby out.

Thanks for making me feel less alone

Hey @Captain24 ,

I didn't get a single thing done from y sticky notes today, but I did visit a home and take 3 luggage bags of goodies for her newborn baby. So that was enough to make me feel accomplished. I took them food yesterday.

What about you? Did you get the cleaning done?

Hey @tyme

You are so kind. You have a heart of gold and are so generous. That was really nice of you. That trumps any sticky note!

I didn’t do any cleaning. I did the kitchen, a load of washing and set the dishwasher. I haven’t even unpacked it. I’ve just sat in the lounge and scrolled then I watched a movie after mum picked Keiko up.

I feel really slack.

This family is really struggling with managing life so I get up and take the kids to school each day. It makes me grateful for all the things we have.

Meh? That's okay if you didn't get to do any cleaning. There's plenty of time. To be honest, make the most of your time off. I'm sensing it will flash by super quickly!

Can you put cleaning on the list for tomorrow?

What movie did you watch? I doubt I'll know it, but in a way, good on you for just chilling. I feel having the three dogs is like having three kiddos and so once you hand keiko back, you can relax!

I took the 2 older kids to starbucks today after school. They got a matchamisu latte each. @Captain24

So, what's on your agenda tomorrow?

I didn’t know you did that @tyme. I hope good karma finds you. You deserve it. No wonder you struggle with time. You give it to everyone else but I mean that in a good kind way!

It is going quickly and I haven’t had any chill time really. Tomorrow I have to start packing to go away. Mum said I can leave on Saturday now so that means I get an extra night away. When I get there I’ll have sometime to myself before catching up with people. I’ll have Sunday afternoon to myself as well.

I do want to get the inside of my house sorted before going back though. I just have the dusting in the lounge room, the walk-in and 2 bedrooms to sort before I go back. I do need to clean the outside of my house and fix the garden but if I don’t do them then that’s ok.

I read up on the new meds I’m taking to replace the munchie ones. My Pdoc said they were for high blood pressure but help with sleep. So I googled to see the side effects. They include headaches, nausea, vomiting and diarrhoea! That explains a lot. They also need to be taken with food which is why they are making me sick when I take them later in the night! Also they are used for ADHD! I’m not even diagnosed yet.. she did say she expects the assessment to say that I have it.

It just happened with this family. I wasn't planning on going or helping, but it just happened. I've seen houses... but I've never seen a house so bare 😞 They had NOTHING. @Captain24

Anyway... besides that... WHAT??? You're going away? You said your parents were going but I don't think I remember you saying you were going with them. Are the dogs going too?

Take a DEEEP breath when you go lol. I'm thinking that having parents around can only be small doses for me.

It would be good to have a clean house to come back to. No wonder you want to get everything cleaned out.

As for the meds! No way! What a mess. And the doc never said that when it was prescribed??? Oh dear. At least you now know so hopefully you know how to manage it better.

That’s so sad @tyme. How did you meet them?

Yeah.. I’m going to the south coast on Saturday, then I spend Sunday with a friend I think she will head off about 3 then Monday I’ll spend with another friend and she will head off around 4 I think. Then I head up the coast a little and stay the night in the suburb that my psych is in and see her in person on Tuesday then head home. Just me, no parents, no dogs. That’s why I was shocked when mum said I could go Saturday as she will have them!

It’d be nice to have it all done before I go but I can’t see that happening. I’ll give it a go though.

She prescribed it when she decided that I needed to come off the other med. She didn’t say it was for ADHD but more for sleep. She did say it was for high blood pressure though but used with MH. Never warned me of side effects though! I’m going to give it another week and see if it settles down. The headache feels like a hangover headache. But I took my meds straight after dinner and I don’t feel sick! Bonus. The nausea wasn't as bad today either. Just the diarrhoea and headache. I know that’s too much information! 😂

What are your plans for tomorrow?

Wow!!!! That's sounds soooo amazing! Good on you for getting this trip sorted and taking that leap of faith to get out! You totally deserve it.

Geez! Your itinerary shows how well planned everything is.

I had external supervision this afternoon (part of the role here), and I was talking about how I just forget everything nowadays. Today, I left the house, drove off to the next suburb then realised I didn't have my bag, phone or anything with me! I had to drive all the way back home to get my stuff.

I am totally forgetting everything now. It's so hard. But the supervisor said that beside ADHD is can also be that I've just got too much in my brain - which I can also agree with to some extent.

With this family, I was told about them by an external service to see if I could organise any help for them. Because I know a lot of services in the area, I could refer them to clinics, community hubs etc. It's not a long term thing, and I don't get paid for doing it, but it's just to help them back on their feet. @Captain24

My day tomorrow will hopefully be getting those sitcky notes sorted. I'll visit the family in the morning, and then tackle the sticky notes.

Oh, just a heads up, I don't think I'm on the forums tomorrow. There's so much change happening so I'm taking tomorrow off. Then I'll be back Friday.

I’m looking forward to it @tyme. It’s a break from home and without parents. I’m totally on my own. I am anxious about seeing my psych in person though. Which sounds strange but usually there is a screen between us!

Of course it’s organised!! I’ve even googled stuff I can do when I get there and after my friends leave! Also I have started sorting out clothes!

That’s so hard. I’m getting concerned that I’m developing dementia. Forgetting your bag and have to turn around would be so frustrating. Without stuff written down I can’t do anything. I wrote a shopping list today. Bread, raisin toast, milk, metho! That was it and I needed it written down.

Maybe with so much going on in your brain could be a reason. It does make a lot of sense.

I hope you can help them. Just to get out of trouble and make life a little easier.

So you will have a little more time to get through some stuff then? Or are you doing work in the background?

I’ll miss you tomorrow! Are you working Sunday or do you still have sundays off?

So are you saying you have to write everything down too? @Captain24 I've been getting very concerned and upset at my lack of being able to remember things. So maybe it's not just me?

I'm not on at all tomorrow. But I might just hop on the computer.. which may lead to me hopping on here... which may lead to me posting... but no, I'm officially not working tomrorow.

Um... Sunday? I actually don't even know yet. I'll let you know when I know. I just know I'm here Friday. One day at a time.... that's all my brain can manage.

I remember with my psych, for a long time, we did face to face, then we moved to phone, then to zoom.. it was so weird each time and I had to get used to the different medium each time. But the transition was strange.