I can’t cope

Hopefully it eases for both of us @rav3n

Im thinking it may be a combination of both. The withdrawal is there and I can feel it with the low mood and dark thoughts. (Doesn’t make it any easier though)

Pushing myself so much is probably not helping. But I feel like I have to prove myself by getting so much done.

Im going to the south coast Sunday night and Monday night. Spending a day each with 2 friends and then seeing my psych in person on the Tuesday and then I’ll head home.

@Captain24 it's hard when its a combo of both! has anything been helpful in sitting/distracting those dark thoughts?

do you mind me asking, what do you feel you have to 'prove' to yourself?

ooo that sounds nice, i hear the beach area is lovely!! do you have activities planned for the 2 days? hope you have fun with your friends!!

i'm heading off now, take care - hope the rest of your night goes okay 💙

Sitting with the 3 dogs and watching a movie was a good distraction @rav3n

I have to prove that I’m not letting my MI is not winning. But to prove to you that I’m trying.

Im going to the Kiama for a day and Wollongong for the other day. I do have plans but I’ll share them after I get back. Just in case.

Yeah still struggling though.

How’d your meetings go @tyme

I know some things have been said around here today about support @tyme. If you don’t feel comfortable that’s ok.

Heya @Captain24 ,

It's okay. Sorry, I was just working on introducing our new mods 🙂

How has today been?

All good.. just didn’t want to cause any drama. @tyme

I still don’t feel well but I managed to do my list. Even cleaning the windows in my room and the floor of the walk-in. Everything that I said last night is done. I wanted to give up but you were there and helped me.

How did your meetings go? Did you stay focused? Did you get anything done of your sticky note or too busy

Well done @Captain24 . I'm mindful it would've been very hard for you to get those things done, but well done for persevering!

In the meeting, I ended up writing 3 more sticky notes so now I have 5 to work on.

But even then, I am NEARLY done with 2 sticky notes so I felt accomplished. You were 'there' in my mind. Every time I looked at the sticky note, it reminded me of you.

Tomorrow is pretty busy for me too.

I'm going to try and tick some things off my sticky notes - but I'm only going to set the goal for 1-2 things because they are the big bad boys that I need to tackle - which I've been procrastinating.

Sorry I can't hang around too long tonight. So my apologies in advance if it takes longer to respond. I've got all this admin work to do.

We have new mods starting tomorrow evening. These are mods (not peer workers/community builders), so I need to get all their things ready.

What's on your list for tomorrow?

Also, is Pix still okay? I'm sorry to hear you still don't feel the best.

How gorgeous is the pic of Jett and Keiko! It's like Regal over 'brat'. @Captain24

Oh no.. more notes! @tyme. It gets like that though. Once one thing is done more follows

If they are big ones that you’ve been putting off than it’s ok to just do one and remove that whole sticky note.

Thats ok.. I get that you are busy and so much to sort for the new mods.

I’m just going to aim small and just dust the living room and maybe clean the windows. I think it’s to hard to do much with 3 dogs.

Pix is doing well. I feel like I’m hungover but considering that I don’t drink, that’s not what it is. I have kept everything down so far.

I think I’m going through the withdrawal. You were right last night. Knowing it doesn’t make it any easier though! The thoughts are still the same