I can’t cope

Hey @Jynx

How are you?

Slow day for me today @Captain24 how are you?

I was just telling stories to ale_inmelb about ending up at a fire twirling night by accident haha want me to tag you?

Slow days can be good @Jynx

I’m feeling really low and dark. I called in sick today. I got my physical pain. I’m so sore after yesterday’s incident.

I have been looking after myself though. I’ve been distracting myself and I’ve just had a bath.

Yeah.. show me please

Did I say something wrong or are you just busy. It’s ok either way.

Oh you know what I did @Captain24 lol maybe you'll get a kick outta this

I tagged you in the other thread, then my brain went 'okay that is done, tick, close tab' without ACTUALLY replying!! 😵😅

I am flying solo - that does mean busy but doesn't mean TOO busy! Gimme two shakes hun 😉

Was just telling MissinTooth that it's a good thing to write days off from time to time @Captain24! Good on you for prioritising your need for rest.
Wow the poem I shared earlier is super relevant tonight!!

Bath is gooooood, wish I had a bath! I'm lighting all my candles though, it definitely helps soothe me and also warms up the room!

I shouldn’t have called in sick @Jynx. I feel guilty. But I guess it’s too late now. I did need the day though. I’m now watching Netflix but I just can’t focus. The noise is a bit loud. At least I’m trying something. I’ve been trying.

What was the poem?

I have a big bath and it’s so nice. I put salt in it to help with my muscles.

Candles so nice. How many do you have if they warm up the room!!!

Pix was annoying me so I gave her a treat. Now she is happy and leaving me alone.

please let me know if you don’t have time. I don’t want to bother you like last night. Its ok

@Captain24 yesss you are trying!! Proud of you!! I often use streaming as background noise lol it does help hey.

Here!

You need rest

Not a thing we need earn

We fight best

With energy to burn

Magnesium salts!! I wish I could use them in the shower somehow...

hmmm 15 at the moment, with 10 unlit... 😋

omg Razz is whining at me right now. I JUST gave em treats so he just wants affection... lol I am BUSSYYYYY (nah I got up and gave him some scritches don't worry! Never too busy for kitty scritches!)

You are so fine hun, and it weren't no bother 😉

Thanks. @Jynx. It doesn’t feel like I deserved.

That’s good. It hopefully is what I needed.

That’s a lot of candles!!! I have a few but only light one.

Sometimes it can be annoying but you always give in and give em pats.

Thanks for helping through it. I really appreciate your ways of going about things.

I’ve got 7 more shifts left before I’m off for nearly 4 weeks. I need to just get through them. But maybe this is just a blip on the road.

It is getting pretty rocky right now

@Captain24 yeah cept for the part where it ain't just up to you whether you deserve support or not! And to ignore a human being in pain - especially one with whom I have a connection - would go against every value I have. Please never forget, I consider my role, my time here with y'all, an absolute privilege. I get to be there for folks - like you, and many others who are struggling too - in a way that feels healing for the younger parts of me that had no one. I get that it can actually feel scary to let people care about you. But even (especially!) on those days it feels like you are 'taking up space' - it's always deserved 💜

OMG yay! What are you doing with time off? Or is this for a clinic stay? I forget, sorry!