I can’t cope

I feel like I am @rav3n

I had a big emotional psych appointment today and I don’t know how to make this be recovery focused. But I’m really drained. I’ve had a shower so my body is relaxed just not my mind.

T/W SH

If this doesn’t meet ‘recovery focussed’ just delete it. It’s ok to ban me if it’s wrong

You don’t have to respond. Not sure I’m worthy of it

@Captain24 i assure you, you're not. i can't speak for others, but i will speak for myself and say that you're always worth my time. always.

i've added the content warning box for ya, hope that's okay. is the SAD - seasonal affective disorder or social anxiety disorder? (i always confuse the acronym!)
sounds like some heavy stuff were discussed, i can absolutely see why you'd be drained too. was your psych able to provide you some support/tools around the SI and SH?

i know that posting in a recovery focussed way can be tough - it basically means that when you do post about SI/SH, you're letting us know that you're safe or how you're working on staying safe or for support on staying safe, etc. i hope i didn't make that more confusing. i'm glad your body feels relaxed after the shower, what's something that can relax your mind - would watching tv show help? hugging Pix and Jett?

It’s hard to think that @rav3n

I can’t do spoilers on my phone sorry. Thank you.

Seasonal Affective Disorder. I always struggle badly in winter. It’s been like it for as long as I can remember. I have social phobia too.

Just ‘dropping anchor’ and noticing what feelings are coming up.

We talked a lot more about the medication withdrawal and how it’s all linked.

Im watching a show on Netflix but I think it’s getting really weird. Pix and Jett are close by.

It’s all very confusing.

I guess you have gone now @rav3n

Sorry if I was too much.

Not at all @Captain24. She was in a rush and told me to say goodbye to you!

How are you feeling? I will be here until 10, so we can chat about whatever you need until then, okay? 🥰

It’s all good. I don’t expect her to say goodbye, I was just worried that I was too much. I did say a lot. @AuntGlow

I’m not really ok

@Captain24 I am sorry you aren't feeling okay, I know things are a lot right now...

How are your fur babies this evening? Are they giving you cuddles or cheek? 👀

I don’t know if I’m allowed to say it but more thoughts are really dark.

Pix is in my room and Jett is on my lap. Both are sound asleep @AuntGlow.

When I was on my psych appointment they decided it was time to play! Jetts very loud when he is playing. She just laughed and I calmed them down.

There’s a lot going on. She also said that I could be mentally addicted to my meds that I’m coming off. I just feel like I’m a mess and it’s all overwhelming and it’s not helping all my deep dark thoughts.

@Captain24 Awwww so cute.

hahah little rascals, I love that.

I am sure this was very overwhelming for you to talk about... I think you're incredibly brave for addressing hard topics like this head-on. I am wondering, what do you think you can do tonight to stay safe? I finish in 20 minutes, so maybe we can just focus on the next half an hour? ☺️