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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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I mowed the backyard and there were no brown snakes! @rav3n. There may have been some tears when I got near the area though, or maybe a lot of tears. I ran outta bin space so I didn’t get to the front but the front lawn is long and it’s really scaring me. I’m shaking just thinking about it.

I might need to plant garlic all around the edges! Lol

My ice cream was death by chocolate! Chocolate ice cream with m&m’s, brownie and picnic! So good.

Did you end up doing Mother’s Day dinner last night?

Hope you have had a good day

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so proud of you for mowing as much as you could!! doing the scary stuff can be a really emotional time, hey @Captain24 you definitely deserve a nice break after that - maybe doing the rest on a cold, gloomy day would feel safer? haha honestly the garlic sounds worth the try!

that combo sounds delicious!! love anything chocolate 😋

yep! had dinner at home instead of going out though, i picked up food for us. she and my dad were watching some movie together so i just ate dinner in my room haha so things went smoothly!

are you having your mother's day dinner now? hope it's going okay!!

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I’m going to rest now @rav3n.

I haven’t stopped since 11 this morning. I’ve done everything on my list up to today and some of my list for tomorrow including bathing the dogs and a trip to the tip.

I was going to hem my work jeans but I just can’t be f’d

We just had takeaway Chinese for dinner. They are washing up so I left! I was there for an hour and a half and that felt too long. I shouldn’t complain I don’t see them very often but when I do I’m reminded as to why!

Dinner in your room sounds good. An escape.

Did you get up to much today?

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what's your go-to rest activity? cuddling the dogs? tv shows? @Captain24

that's so amazing!! i struggle to get through just 'today's list' of tasks, that's such a win that you've tackled through some of tomorrow's too!!

so fair, i always push back hemming stuff. i finally got one of my pants hemmed last month after avoiding it for a year 😆 do you do a lot of sewing stuff?

oh yeah, an hour and half is plenty! so fair, we all have our own limits when it comes to interacting with family members - i'm glad it get dragged any longer for you, thank goodness for the dishes distraction!

It defs was, i like eating alone with my tv show. it's my 'me' time. I didn't get up to much, I'll probably go gym later tonight and then I gotta get up early tomorrow to drop my mum off. I'm not a morning person so not looking forward to it. Are you a morning person? I know you've mentioned working night shifts, is your bed time/wake routine challenging to maintain?

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I’m just sitting in the lounge watching travel guides with the dogs. @rav3n. I’m really tired. So exhausted.

I want to get everything finished tomorrow from Tuesdays list as well so I can have a nothing day. I think I’ve earnt it.

I use to sew heaps. I use to dance and my best friend owned the studio so I made heaps of costumes. I use to get so into it that I had to set an alarm to stop so I would go to bed. These jeans won’t take long. I’ll get them done in about an hour so it’s not going to take that long tomorrow. I need them to wear to work on Wednesday.

I can’t do too much time with my parents. It doesn’t end well. I feel it now.

You’re keen to go to the gym so late! I keep telling myself I need to join a gym. I just haven’t had the confidence to.

I use to be a morning person but the med that I’m coming off has had me waking up really tired. So it’s changed it up a bit but also shift work has messed with my whole sleep cycle.

Do you have much room in your room? Is it comfortable to hang in?

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@Captain24 i just saw this post now, i'll reply to it tomorrow - so sorry i couldn't get back to ya tonight.

take care and i'll catch you on Monday 💙

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I have done so much today. Hemmed my work pants, changed my sheets and doona cover, mowed the front lawn, cleaned the kitchen, laundry and ensuite. Vacuumed, swept and washed the floors. Oh and some ironing!

Ive had a shower and washed my hair plus I had a bath.

Now I'm exhausted and just want to go to bed. I’ve stopped doing anything now. I’m sitting on the lounge watching tv with the dogs. I need to go grocery shopping but I just can’t be f’d.

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@Captain24 i used to watch travel guides! i think the newer seasons have slightly different people right? is it still good?

ahh yep, a nothing day would be good - you defs deserve it! oh and i read your recent post too - WOW good on you for getting all that done!! i'd be exhausted too, hope you're able to rest and recharge now. i was supposed to do the groceries today too but i'll have to push it tomorrow.

ooo that's so cool, what kind of dance did you do? i'm so amazed that you made costumes too, i wish i had your sewing skills!!

i like going to the gym before bed, it tires me out so that by the time i get home and shower, i can feel my eyelids droop and i fall asleep faster! but i haven't been consistent with gym lately, it's hard to stay motivated esp in the colder weather. totally hear you about the confidence part, i still struggle with that too - the gym first went to was pretty overstimulating and then i switched to a ladies-only gym and there's usually less than 2-10 ppl in the whole gym at the time i go (sometimes i have the whole gym to myself) which makes me feel more comfy.

my dad does shift work too and sleeps been a tricky one for him too. waking up feeling that heavy tiredness is so hard, hoping that it eventually gets less tiring.

i have a small room, my desk, coat hanger and ikea trolley (which i keep my jewellery, perfume, etc in) take up some space so sometimes feels even smaller. and i've got a card board box with a bunch of old clothes that i need to get rid off too. but i still love it, my bed is so cosy. if i could, i would love to spend day and night on my bed 😅 what about your room? is it comfy to hang in?

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I’ve only just started watching it. @rav3n. I’m enjoying it.

I’ll go shopping in the morning and cook meals for work and then re-clean the kitchen. Plus I have a psych appointment but mostly it’ll be nothing.

Groceries can wait! Do you just do your own shopping or for the family?

I feel like I accomplished heaps today but it has taken its toll on me physically and mentally. I just had a massive dog fight so maybe it won’t be a restful afternoon! They are fighting over the same bone.

I started to learn at 25. I did ballet, jazz, tap, musicals theatre, modern. Sometimes she would do a drawing of what she wanted and I’d have to come up with it. It got quite challenging at times!

So the gym doesn’t energise you? I’m glad you found a gym more comfortable for you. One of the gyms here has a ladies only section. That’s the one I’m thinking of but it’s the confidence of going and speaking to them and the fact that I’m so fat and unfit and no that’s not an exaggeration. I’m worried everyone would judge me.

I was doing better at juggling my sleep but as my MH has deteriorated so has my recovery time.

That sounds cosy. My room is nice, I have a comfy bed and just a dresser and tall boy in it. I have a walk in robe. I spend most of my time in the living room though. My favourite room is the front room, it has a cosy homey feeling about it but I don’t use it often.

The dogs have the sulks now!

How was your day?

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@Jynx How you doin’

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