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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Well I guess a slow start is good. I don't know why, but I'm so curious to be a fly on your wall. I honestly find it pretty cool that you still go on holz with your parents. I can't get this out of my head. It's 'sweet', even though I know it is so so hard and potentially triggering for you.

I'm really curious to know what draws them to want to do this so regularly with their adult children @Captain24 .

I'm just thinking out aloud. You don't have to answer at all.

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You made me smile @tyme

It sounds cool I guess. But for me it’s an obligation. People wonder why I would go with them. Can’t you do anything without our parents? You know I always listen to what is said.

I feel like they want to show that we are a tight family. Well I guess that’s what they think anyway. They have no idea as to what goes on in my head and how I feel.

From the outside I can see that it’s interesting. My parents thoughts about it and mine defer remarkably!

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Hope your dinner and family time went okay @Captain24

Hugs.

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Hey @Captain24 , We actually posted at the same time. Hence your post and my post 'appeared' at the same time 🙂

Yes, about your parents, it's just so interesting. Even if they wanted to 'show' you are a tight knit family, who is it to show to? Do they have may outsiders they talk to?

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Mum talks to a lot of people when she walks the dogs. @tyme Plus she has a few people that she associates with, whether in town or on zoom. She tells them all everything. Most of them know I had Covid. She likes to make herself look as though she is a much better person than she is.

I don’t think I explained that very well!

How are the swimming lessons going?

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We did go for a walk along the beach @tyme

 

 

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The little on has only had one swimming lesson @Captain24 and she loved it.

I had a time in the pool with the two older ones today. It was soooo soooo lovely in the pool. When the little one came home I said she can come in only if she wore a floaty. She refused so she wasn't allowed in. She screamed the place down.

She's sooo stubborn!

The sunset looks so awesome! Enjoy it while you can.

I'll check-in with you tomorrow.

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They have started on each other. @tyme

I did get my own space this after to go to the beach. It was so nice.

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Hi @Jynx

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