I can’t cope

I’ve just had a massive day. I left home at 6:30 this morning and drove down to see my friends in hospital. I got home at 9. It was good to see them. While I was in there I saw a facilitator that remembered me by name, 3 nurses and the cleaner. It was so nice that they all remembered me.

Then I went for a walk along the beach, it was hot and windy but it was nice to walk in the water.

Then I saw my psych and it was a really good appointment. We had a lot of laughs and she found out a lot more of my childhood. She wants to do exposure therapy at my next appointment on having the confidence to call up at work so I can go to the bathroom instead of trying to hold it. Apparently it stems from not being allowed out of bed to go when I was a kid. If we got out we got punished.

Now I’m feeling drained.

@Captain24 woah that is SUCH massive day!! Also really gorgeous pic!!

Aww sounds like your psych is really helping you to tap into some better understanding of yourself!! It can be pretty confronting hey, how's it all feeling for you now?

It’s a nice beach @Jynx

She is really working out. She wants me to try and see my GP earlier as she wants me to get into a Pdoc and start getting the ADHD thing assessed and meds checked. I shouldn’t end up in crisis with the meds I’m on.

As for how I’m feeling.. I’m not allowed to be negative on here.

You can be as negative as you feel hun @Captain24 especially if that's how you're feeling. You can double check via email if you're unsure, happy to help guide ya. I definitely want you to be able to express yourself!!

Oh... but alas, only a smidge of time before I log off, so maybe we can talk more about it tomorrow? You're at work again hey... hmmm.

I’m really scared on here. I haven’t posted for days @Jynx.

I don’t go back to work until Friday.

@Captain24 I think that's absolutely reasonable for you to need to do hun. I am sorry though, I don't imagine it's a fun time. Just take it slow yeah? Like I said, always happy to provide some guidance as you go, and also plenty of reassurance!! We want you here, very much!!

I'm off for realsies now, so we can chat more tomorrow about it!! It'd be nice to catch up properly too 😊 Be gentle with yourself ok? Sending you too many hugs. That's right, TOO MANY. YOU ARE INUNDATED WITH HUGS NOW, NO ESCAPE!! Muahahaha 😜

You’ll forget anyway @Jynx 😜

Nuh uhh!!! Look see, tag @Captain24 you're it!! 🤣

You’re hilarious @Jynx.

Im just sitting here waiting for the boob squish appointment. Shouldn’t be too much longer. At least it’ll be done for another 2 years