I can’t cope

@Captain24 yeah for sure, as if like, mania just means feeling good and having a big ego or some crap like that. Like no, if it was just that then it wouldn't need it's own terminology!!

Oh sure! I can always ramble about it, just need a prompt usually. Oh look, you provided one!! Teehee. And yes I miss stuff on tv all the time!! Or I won't be able to sit still n watch unless I'm also stimming in some way - usually games on my phone. Same with needing to re-read paragraphs in order to actually let the message sink in!!

I like your sides! I like that you have many!! A whole constellation of unique experiences!!

Ahaha I'm sure we would have a grand old time comparing notes on who has the most interesting inclinations!! 🤣 Yeah teasing is hard when you're alone!! Hence getting... I guess the universe? Random chance? The god of dice? lol.... to do it for me!!

Huh that's weird!! Your google algorithm doesn't know you're kinky, it was the top result for me!! 😋

I dunno if I can share the link here though. Rats!

OMG.. I’m sitting here bouncing my legs trying to watch tv. It feels

like restless legs. I’m having trouble with that lately anyway. I’ve gotten up so many times. I’ve had to reread paragraphs a lot.

We could have some awesome convo’s

Just have to see what the universe brings.

Completely different topic.. I’m feeling a little sad. 3 of my friends are in hospital doing the same course that I’m redoing in August! That’s different from this time last year when I was petrified to go!

Also an interesting thing about me.. everyone I take my meds I sneeze!

Almost missed this @Captain24 haha you forgot to tag me 😋 Luckily @rav3n was keeping watch! Thanks hun!!

THE BOUNCY LEG!! Classic ADHD right there lol. Oh and getting up all the time! My fav (not) is when I'm in stim-seeking mode and so I go to find food, open fridge. Nothing is easy or quick. Close fridge. Wander around. Hmm I need something but dunno what, maybe I should go find food! Open fridge. Nothing is easy or quick... 🤣

Oh hectic!! Are these friends ones you met during the course? Are you sad cos you won't get to share the course with them this time?

Oh dang, the time is getting away from us again!! I will say goodnight now, just in case.

MANY HUGS!! Thank you for the chats, for your openness and trust, and for the chuckles!! Sneezy meds lmao that's great 🤣 Nighty night hun 💜

Sorry I forgot the tag. @Jynx Maybe it’s an ADHD thing 😝

I do the wandering too. I don’t know how many times a day I open the fridge. Even to get a drink and shut the fridge and forgot to have a drink!

Yeah.. I’m sad that I’m not there with them. Plus they have 2 facilitators that I love

Thank you for allowing me the space to be so open and honest. Thanks for your support and help.

Have a good night… sweet dreams

Hey @Captain24 ,

How are you?

Sounds like you've had a busy few days!

Ruby is surprisingly really good. No issues at all... thank God! I was so so worried about her.

What's happening today?

Sorry for being negative. @tyme I know I’m not meant to be. I should be positive on here so I don’t get into more trouble.

Im so so so glad Ruby is ok.. I’ve been worried.

Did you read my emails?

Hey @Captain24 ,

It's not about being 'positive'. No one is every always 'positive'. Recovery-focused is different to 'positive'.

I'm more than happy to guide you if you want to run through any posts.

You are human. I am human. We are never always 'positive'.

I've had enough of being in Sydney... i lost it at my sister today... is that positive? Not really. But I can say that I'm looking forward to returning to my own house and not be in the same house at my Melb sister..

and yes, Ruby is totally fine...

Do you read my emails? @tyme

I just have no idea anymore. I’m not comfortable being me.

The only thing I can say is that I’m not ok.

Does your sister hold a grudge? When do you come home?

Your emails? I haven't read any emails @Captain24

Did you want me to read them? If so, when did you send them?

In this case, I don't want to talk to my sis. She's really annoyed me this time.

But in the long run, neither of us really hold grudges...

At least tomorrow I'm free of them. They are going out and I'm staying home as I have a meeting from 12:30pm.

I hope to return asap. I've got things I need to do when I get home... things to sort out... I feel my life is all over the place lol..

ADHD is screaming??? IDK.