I can’t cope

Thanks @rav3n. That means a lot

@Captain24 Aww so not only did you push yourself outside your comfort zone, you also did something that was meaningful to your colleagues!! I think you can be more than a little proud!

It's like... if we punish ourselves over every tiny mistake, shouldn't we celebrate ourselves over every tiny win?

I guess. @Jynx. Allowing myself to be a little proud is pretty big. It doesn’t change anything else

I feel sick and scared

@Captain24 it doesn't fix everything else but I think it will still have an impact - small, yes, but still no less important. Recovery is like a marathon, and whilst this step won't get you over the finish line, you're still closer than before.

Take some breaths hun (remember how helpful a minute of measured breathing can be!), try a little switch up of your environment, and check in with your basic needs (food, sleep, shower, meds, hydration, etc) - maybe even revisit those coping thoughts I posted earlier?

I am off for now, but sending you one last BIG squeeze 🫂🫂 before I go!! Chat to you tomorrow?

Thanks @Jynx.

Ive had a shower, I’ve eaten, I’m in bed. I need to be asleep but I’m not.

I have reread your posts trying to let them enter.

It’s just really hard. I want to go to sleep and just stay sleeping.

Im not ok at all. But I'm in bed so as long as I stay here I am safe.

I know you have gone for the night.

I hope you have a good night. I know it’s just starting for you.

So.. I’m sitting in the emergency department. Scared out of my mind. They are not sure if I’m having heart issues.

I think it’s just indigestion but work made the call. I got driven into town by ambulance. They took me in the same door as when I was brought in before. At least this time I’m in a bed not in the safe room.

@Captain24 it sounds like you must be in a bit of discomfort! I hope that they're able to work out what's going on quickly, and I'm glad that your work was cautious.

I'll sit with you while you wait to hear 💚

There’s an emergency unfolding so they are a little held up. @Ru-bee.

They aren’t sure if the person is going to be ok.

I’ve had to have a chest xray and everything. I’ve had several ECG’s and a blood test.

Im a little scared.

Sitting with you too @Captain24 hoping your ok