I can’t cope

Since Tuesday when we redid the same memory @tyme. One memory twice.

Im feeling really down, sad, defeated, distressed, hopeless, worthless, alone.

Oh! So you redid the same memory. What was different @Captain24 ?

Do you think you need a break from rescripting?

Or did something happen at work to make you feel this way?

It was the same @tyme. But I’m now wondering whether it maybe opened feelings. I’m not a crier usually. Yes I have moments but this feels different. Our next appointment is in my brother so no rescripting.

Im really down…

Hormones? @Captain24

I know I get super emotional just before my monthlies...

It's like this unjustifiable agitation and then I cry lol. It makes me laugh that hormones can send me la la

Nah it’s just finished. @tyme.

I just want to be held and told that it’ll all be ok. I feel so alone. But at the same time I don’t want anyone to be around.

Here's a big virtual hug!

Feel the hug.

Notice the hug.

Feel the warmth of the embrace.

Remember that feeling. @Captain24

Thank you @tyme

Part of the rescripting is being in nan and pops arms. Maybe that’s what’s happened. Maybe that’s why I’m emotional. I don’t know.

Im safe but I just want to curl up in bed and not get up.

Maybe that's the key? You just need to be safe in someone's arms? @Captain24

Maybe.. I’ve got no one that would care enough. @tyme. It’s like I just need to be held and fall asleep. Does that make sense? I just feel like I need so unconditional love. Maybe because I did get that. I don’t know. I don’t k ow anything.

Have you ever tried a weighted blanket? @Captain24

I used to use two at a time. So that was 20 kgs on me. It was amazing. I still have them, but because I have my niece sleep with me, I have to be careful. I can't let her use the weighted blankets.

The ideal weight should be 10% of your body weight, but I just love the heavier ones.

Anyway, I'm sorry I have to love and leave you now. I'll see you over the weekend.