I can’t cope

Don't forget the part where it's not just 'someone', like some rando @Captain24 lol you're not telling this stuff to old mate at the bus stop! This is the psych who has time and again demonstrated a high capacity to provide empathic and attuned care. Can you picture in your head how she'll react?

It's totally normal to be scared! But we know that true bravery is not not being scared, true bravery is being scared as heck but doing the thing anyway. You can be brave, I know you can!

Im sure she will say that she appreciates my honesty. I’m sure she will be empathetic. I’m sure it will be all ok. But it’s still a lot to dump on her all at once. @Jynx

And if she weren't a trained professional then maybe that would be something to worry about but I'm sure it's nothing she hasn't heard before @Captain24 😊

I will bid you goodnight, good luck, and good fortune!! You got this babes, I believe in you 💪😎💜

Rest well, catch ya tomorrow 🫂

I’ll tag you after my appointment so you get it when you come back on. @Jynx. I need luck and strength.

Have a good night.

Thank you

So it was a really good appointment @Jynx. I’ve finished feeling a bit better. I’m exhausted though. I did read the whole thing out to her. It wasn’t easy but it helped her realise where I was at.

She did some imagery something that’s part of schema therapy.

We went back to a memory that has lead to my MH issues. It was an image of mum telling us we weren’t wanted. She took me to that place and worked through that she was there and took me around to my nan and pops house and they just held me and loved me unconditionally. I have to work on what she did daily. So I can feel loved unconditionally and cared for. Nothing has been done like that before. I did have a psych in hospital help me find my inner child so I think that helped with this imagery thing.

Right at this moment I feel cared for. Not sure if it was taking me to Nan and pops house or that she cared enough for me to take me there and actually help.

I am so tired and drained after that appointment. All I want to do is just curl up in bed and go to sleep. I am mentally and physically exhausted.

I can’t though. I have a hairdresser appointment at 1 that will take 3-4 hrs. I really don’t want to go. I don’t have it in me to do small talk. I just need to sleep.

I’m sitting at the hairdresser with my hair in foils. All I want to do is go back to bed. I don’t want to be here. I’m the only one so there is no one else for her to talk to.

The chair is uncomfortable. It’s at her house so I feel uncomfortable. I don’t think id feel comfortable anywhere.

Im starting to stress about going to work tomorrow. The stress about going last block led me down a bad path. I need to deal with it better (or safer) this time.

Sorry if I’ve upset you.

hey @Captain24 you haven't upset anyone here. did you finish getting your hair done?