I can’t cope

He just likes to be a pain @tyme. I don’t know anyone with long-haireds to know whether the malt as well. He is thoroughbred.

Argh.. 3 am is late. I’m guessing you’re really tired! Taken them earlier tonight?

Mine are instant release plus extended release. I should have been asleep about an hour ago. I’m not sure if extra may help.

I think there's a lot of stress around sleep about how much we 'should' be getting and when we 'should' be sleeping @Captain24

I feel that the more I stress about the 'shoulds' of sleep, the less sleep I get.

Hence I've come to the conclusion that... meh? If I sleep, I sleep. It if I don't, I don't. I'll just make up for it the next night. I know that's different if you experience mania - it has to be closely monitored.

I'm don't actually feel tired right now. I've got a munchkin talking talking talking... she's telling me about ants being pollinators, the scientific name for pandas, World War 2, Remembrance Day, omnivores etc...

And yes.. she's still talking.

The little person is still talking.

She said, "You know, it doesn't make sense. If Pinocchio said his nose would grow if he lied, and his nose grew, it means he lied. But if Pinocchio said his nose wouldn't grow, then he also lied. So he would lie anyway?"

@Captain24 . Geezz. as if I have the brain for that.

Sleep ‘should s’ are hard @tyme. My did in hospital said that people with mi need more sleep than regular people as our brains have to work harder.

She wants me to have 9-10 hours a night. Hence the extended release to keep me asleep.

Yes.. lack of sleep can bring in mania so I have to be very careful. It can happen after one night or it could take a couple of nights without sleep.

So I guess you are learning a lot tonight! I’m guessing it’s information that you need to know 😜 I’m sure it’s a great conversation. It’s pretty cute though sharing her knowledge. At least she is learning and interested in learning.

OMG this kid is going to go places. She is so right though!

I hope she doesn't become a lawyer. I see it in her though. She's got an answer for everything and just argues and argues and argues.

Gives me a headache... seriously, who'd think about Pinocchio like that? @Captain24

Anyway, I'm going to wrap up and will see you over the weekend!

Take care!

And look, if you can't sleep after being in the bed for ages, get up do some things and come back.

I took my meds earlier tonight, but I don't feel sleepy at all.

I hope she doesn't become a lawyer. I see it in her though. She's got an answer for everything and just argues and argues and argues.

Gives me a headache... seriously, who'd think about Pinocchio like that? @Captain24

Anyway, I'm going to wrap up and will see you over the weekend!

Take care!

And look, if you can't sleep after being in the bed for ages, get up do some things and come back.

I took my meds earlier tonight, but I don't feel sleepy at all.

Maybe a politician in the making. @tyme

she sounds like my brother when he was a kid. I guess he is still like it. An answer for everything and is always right even if he is wrong.

the Pinocchio things is really random!

I will try the do stuff thing if my meds don’t work

Thanks for the chat I’m not as unsafe as I was.

I hope you fall asleep soon.

talk later

I was getting things done. I wasn’t motivated but I pushed myself. Pushed myself so hard. But then my parents came around. I’ve lost momentum. I don’t want to do anymore stuff. I’m exhausted and just want to go to bed. Why does this keep happening? Why do I fail in the afternoons? I’m so useless that I can’t function as an adult. I am a failure. Do I just take sleep meds and give up and sleep the afternoon away like I have been?

T/W negative self talk

Such a loser. Such a waste of oxygen. Such a waste of space. So useless. So hopeless. So worthless.

@Captain24 once again those thoughts seem to be taking over.

A question I ask myself is "Would I say this to someone else?"

I would never have these thoughts about someone else, so why is it different for me.

Do you have any positive affirmations written down? Like I am worthy of help, I am doing the very best I can, etc. I have a few copies. A copy in my room, a copy in my bag, even a copy in my car.

No they don't always help, yes I get frustrated, yes sometimes they are hard to believe, they are hard to quieten down, but in the end maybe it's worth a try. Sometimes it just gives me those few minutes to calm down.

Just a thought.....