I can’t cope

I’m certainly not looking forward to it. I don’t do people. Plus it’s with my parents and I have to go to their place for cake after. @tyme.

We’re just going to the pub. I love a good pub feed! My favourite cuisine is Thai. We have two Thai places here and both are fantastic. Up there with the best I’ve had.

Pix is pretty good. I just say ‘treat’ and she comes back. I did teach her the come command as well. But she is very much treat orientated. Jett doesn’t do well with come but he has never gotten out so I don’t know how he will go. I have discovered that he loves liver treats so I can start trying to train him with those. Mum has problems with Keiko. Nothing gets her back she just runs! We are worried about a car too. She has no road sense.

Is there any little treat that she likes?

I reckon Pix will 'boss' Jett and tell him to come back? @Captain24

I don't know with Ruby.. this timid pup is a rascal now... I reckon she's been too long around my youngest niece... the fire cracker one. They bully each other. Ruby keeps taking my niece's socks off... only does it to her. Walks around her and keeps nipping at the socks until she can get them off. Then My niece squeezes her with hugs and 'walks' her by the ear....

In a way, they are best friends and very cute to watch.

So yeah, I'm going to have to find something that Ruby likes more than escaping... Just don't know what it is yet.

You know how you see the dogs outside that just 'come back' and 'do as they're told'? Ruby is far from that. I'm thinking whether we just let her out and eventually she'll come back?

I'd be interested to hear if Keiko learns to return.

I don’t know @tyme. Jetts very stubborn and arrogant! She would just look at him with disgust that he wouldn’t do as he is told and look at me like ‘see mum I’m a good girl’

Just so you know she is going to get way worse before she gets better!

Thats a cute relationship to have.

Do you walk her? So she knows where home is? My suggestion is to walk her different ways so that she knows how to get home.

Yeah. My two aren’t well trained. I should’ve put more into them as pups.

Keiko is untrainable. We can’t even teach her to sit. At least my two do that. If we can finally train her I’ll let you know!

Just managed to have a shower and washed my hair. Now to get dressed to go out.

Im getting really uneasy about it. There is way too many people for me. It’s going to be loud and noisy.

I’ve run out of smokes and I’m badly craving one. But it’s too busy in town to get some. I’m going to dinner in mum and dad’s car so I can’t even try while I’m out.

Anxiety is rising

Dinner was horrible. It’s usually really good at the pub. It was really chaotic though. So many strangers in town.

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. My life has no purpose and feels like a waste of time. Why bother.

Hey @Captain24, I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling that way tonight. It's great that you are reaching out to the community to share your thoughts and feelings. Do you need a little extra support from a support line right now to have a chat? RiverSeal

I’ve just climbed into bed with my two babies. @RiverSeal. Hoping to keep sleeping. I’ve been trying so hard with the whole self care stuff. There is just no enjoyment in anything that I’m doing. Even walking the dogs feels like a chore. I’ve just had enough.

Ok @Captain24 bed is a good place to be with your babies tonight, and hopefully, you can get some rest. I will be on shift tomorrow if you want to have a chat about motivation and how you are feeling. Do you have anything that you can do to help you rest tonight? RiverSeal

I’ve taken my meds but they are slow release so it’ll take a while @RiverSeal. I did journal and I’ve been writing notes for my psych appointment Tuesday. I’m just lying here in the dark listening to pix snoring.