Hi
Welcome to the forums.
I joined not to long ago myself. I suffer such debilitating depression that I couldn’t get out of bed for days weeks. like yourself I also didn’t even want to wake up. I’m also a SH. and after about 6 years or so I fell back into it again.
I can completely understand and relate to where you are atm. It’s a hell no one can understand unless they have experienced it.
The best thing is you have done is come onto the forum. When you come onto the forums you see you’re not alone with all those maddening thoughts that are running through your head. There are people that can relate to what you’re going through. Take that comfort and advice. I did and I feel better. I’ll never be completely better but I can try to manage better.
As they say take it 30 minutes at a time , hour at a time, day at time etc. antidepressants work, don’t worry about any stigma that people attach to them, they help. If you have been like me and stuck in bed get up have a long shower and do something nice for yourself. Also go for a walk it clears your mind. If you can’t do those that’s fine but do see that appointment for the antidepressants and keep up the conversations on the forums.
I know that everything seems like it’s to hard but believe me just over two weeks ago I thought I wasn’t going to be here anymore I was in the deepest blackest hole that I couldn’t see any light.
Now I’m feeling better because I’m on medication and I’ve talked to people and made some necessary changes. I know I’m on a thread as I always slip back that’s how this disease goes. But this forum is always there for advice.
I find comfort just reading other people’s stories knowing that you’re not alone. You are one of many. Remember that. I did. We aren’t alone. I can’t cope you aren’t alone.
I felt so very very alone, until I came here. It’s devastating that so many people suffer but we are all together fighting.
please remember that. Try to do one positive thing today.
SoSad
