I can’t cope

Yeah the pain isn’t bad enough that I stop the treadmill @Captain24 although if I was to report the pain to my gp or SW or even my dietitian I can imagine what they will say!

I remember getting this pain before. I also get pain in my left foot. I think maybe it’s aggravated by the colder weather too. I also have fibromyalgia, so I expect aches and pains from that too.

that sucks that your allergic to the tape! Is it a pretty coloured one?

It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now @Captain24.

It's great that you've managed the big things so well, like saving up for Jett's surgery. You need to celebrate the wins.

It's also understandable to feel drained when the smaller issues keep piling up.

I hope they get back to you soon and that you can get a clearer idea of your hospital admission dates. Keeping on top of these things can be really tough, but you're doing a great job juggling everything.

Yes, it is a long weekend here, and I plan to relax and recharge. No big plans, just taking it easy. I hope you get some time to rest as well, even with everything going on. Taking care of yourself is just as important as everything else. ❤️

Aw sorry to hear that @Bow.

It sounds like you're pushing through despite not feeling your best, and that's a testament to your strength. ❤️

Is there anything on your mind?

I'm doing well, thank you for asking. Just trying to plan my weekend and hopefully get some rest. Do you have any plans?

My support worker has been away all week @lavenderhaze and I have struggled with that a lot. Other support workers call to check in with me but I don’t have the same kind of trusting relationship with them, so holding a lot inside to myself.

im also waiting to hear what’s going on with my schema therapy group next week. It’s not on Monday due to the PH so they have proposed a Wednesday meeting. Everyone was suppose to get back to the facilitators today. I usually see my psychologist Wednesday mornings, so just anxious to know whether group will go ahead so that I can let my psych know if we need to change appointments, I have called and spoken to her about it already. It’s just frustrating. I want to know what my week will look like.

I got other self inflicted pain that is pretty bad.

Long weekend here. Sunday daughter and I are going into Sydney for vivid and staying the night. We are both looking forward to it.

I hear you @Bow, it sounds like you've had a tough week with your support worker being away. I can imagine you would have felt unsettled when the routine changed. I'm glad other support workers are checking in, though I know it's not quite the same.

I don't like uncertainty, so I know it can be frustrating not knowing what your week will look like. I hope you get clarity soon.

Is there anything you do to help with the pain you mentioned?

On a brighter note, it's wonderful that you and your daughter have plans to enjoy Vivid. Hopefully, it'll be a refreshing break for both of you.

I am logging off now but will chat with you next week. Have a great weekend! ❤️

Yeah I have felt really unsettled this week @lavenderhaze with my SW being away. I’m really hoping that she is well again and back for Tuesday. I skipped out on one of my groups too cause I wasn’t feeling up to it, so that messed with my routine too.

uncertainty is horrible, I hate it. And I feel like I am the only one totally committed to this group, everyone has skipped weeks and just not shown up. After last week with me being the only one that turned up, the facilitator will talk to everyone else and have set a time that they need to let them know if they will be away. It’s rude to just not show up. It takes so much for me to get myself there. Anyways next week will be all messed up with the PH, group, psych appointment.

doinb what I can for the pain.

hope you enjoy your weekend too

Routine is really important to us isnt it @Bow. I don’t cope well without it. I also don’t like knowing what is happening. I need to know when and what time everything is about 2 weeks in advance. This is why I’m stressing over my admission. I don’t know when exactly.

Hey @Captain24 ,

How did work yesterday go?

 I have just ordered my meals for the next 2 weeks. The meals are quite nice so, so far it’s ok. Maybe some of my team will be happy. Eating proper meals mostly twice a day. It’s extremely hard and I am really struggling with it.

This arrived in the post today. Something good in amongst the downward negative spiral.

Wow! Awesome lego! Do you buy them online? @Captain24

I'm glad you like the meals. Go slow.

You must have a whole room nearly filled with lego now!