I can’t cope

You do what you need to do for you @Captain24

We are here for when you need us.

I can understand just trying to get through tonight.

Take care of yourself hon 💕💕

I am sorry things are so rough @Captain24 - hope you are able to get some good rest tonight and that tomorrow is easier on you. Sending big huggles 🫂

@Captain24 I'm sorry you're so confused and struggling 😢 Also that your sleep is bad 😢

I hope your few days off now go well.

Also you hear back today about your 2nd admission 🤞

Is it bad that I’m already really struggling at this time of the morning? I don’t just mean no motivation.

I hope that’s ok to say. I’m not sure these days

So I’ve been confused as to what I can and can’t say. Reading the new guidelines, makes it even harder. Even this post is a breach. What goes on in my head most days is a repeat. I come here for support but I feel like it’s all been taken away.

Hi @Captain24

I am sorry to hear that you're struggling
What's coming up for you?

Sitting with you ❤️

I realise it can be a bit difficult to make sense of everything @Captain24
We can support you with it if you'd like?

You can still use this space for support as you were doing previously

Hi @lavenderhaze

Just delete this if it’s not appropriate.

Im struggling with everything. I have no motivation. I’m just sitting on the lounge looking at a blank tv screen because I can’t even be bothered to put that on. I haven’t even brushed my hair in three days. Forget the whole showering thing.

Im just willing my life to end.

I just went to call a number but I just looked at it and my social anxiety wouldn’t let me call.

I know I have to say this, I am safe

Oh @Captain24, I am so sorry you're going through this

It sounds like things are very hard for you at the moment and everything seems like too much effort

I can relate to that feeling very well - being so depressed you can't even do daily living tasks

It's okay if you haven't brushed your hair or showered in the last few days

Someone once told me that surviving is an achievement in itself

If calling feels like a lot right now, just keep connecting here

I am sitting with you ❤️

We need you here

I tried again to call @lavenderhaze but just couldn’t. I did do chat though. It was a little helpful but I wasn’t completely honest. I’m too scared to be in case they called someone.

I have screamed and punched my pillow. I’ve scribbled on paper and tore it to shreds. It got some out but the pain is still really intense and all consuming.