I can’t cope

Who messed up your home @Captain24 ? Did you have housesitters in during your admission? I'm so sorry you came home to a mess.

Yes @Eve7 I had a pet sitter for 2 weeks and then mum took them for the last week. She made an absolute mess in that time. No wonder her mums house looks so bad. I should’ve know better but I had no one else at short notice.

Im hoping when I go in next that one of the two recommended can do it. If I can sort out work it’ll be around 6 months.

How is retirement treating you?

Good morning @Captain24

Hoping today goes well for you hon.

Sending lots of love 💗💗

I feel like I’m going backwards 😢

Why do you say that @Captain24?

I’m so tired @Snowie. All I want to do is sleep. I feel really flat and I have no motivation. It’s like I’ve got the blues. I don’t know how else to describe it.

It's like a roller coaster @Captain24 We will have those times where we just want to sleep.

I've had a few days where I've just stayed in bed or on the couch in the last few weeks. No motivation to do anything.

Has something happened that is making you feel this way? Could of it had been the visit from your parents? I know that knocked you around a bit.

I know my parents shook me a little @Snowie. But I was feeling it before. I had intrusive thoughts last night. I just had to push them away. I’m so disappointed in myself and that’s not helping. Maybe as I settle back into home life things might improve.

I have to go through all my paperwork from groups but that is to overwhelming. There is a lot of it! Maybe after I’ve completed a block of work I can look at it.

Im having snuggles though. But I need a bigger lap

There is no need to be disappointed in yourself @Captain24 Just think of everything you have achieved.

I think we need to give ourselves a little leeway. Give ourselves room to have these feelings and thoughts. It doesn't mean that things are going back to what they were, it just means that we are 'human'. It is unrealistic to think that everything will be wonderful every moment of every day.

Remember our own worst critic is ourselves. Others probably just see it as the norm, but we see it much worse. If you told the nurses in the clinic what you are thinking, what do you think they would say?

I haven't even started on the paperwork I have got. Haven't started going through what art work I want to keep. It can all wait. There is no time limit on it.

That is a cute photo! Snuggles sound good to me. I only have one and she takes up enough space. I can only imagine having two trying to sit on my lap!!

When does he get his cone of his head?

I have achieved a lot @Snowie. I am so much better than when I went in. I know it’s not the end of my recovery, I just didn’t think that I’d feel so low so soon.

The nurse would probably say to sit with it. Work out what is beneath the mood, where it is coming from and use some of the skills that I’ve learnt like breathing and mindfulness. I should just listen to myself! 😜

I want to get the paperwork in order while it’s still fresh and follow through with it in my own time.

He gets his stitches out next Wednesday but the fine is pretty useless because he is so long with such long legs he can reach where he had his hind dew claws cut it. I can’t get a bigger cone cause his neck is so tiny! It’s the smallest one on the smallest holes!