In the middle of nowhere

Hi @petrichor

Sorry to hear things are so hard for you.

Am around for a bit if you need a chat or someone just to listen

Take care xoxo

Hi @Snowie

thank you for being there. Im having my own alone wake for a friend of mine. I’m pretty sure that won’t end in smiles. I don’t care, sorry to say. How was your day?

Hi @petrichor

Sorry to hear about your friend. It is hard when we lose people close to us.

Is there something nice and comforting that you can do for yourself tonight to help?

I am going to have a bath soon to try and help me relax. Today has been a trying day but getting through it.

Hi @Snowie enjoy your bath 😊

@Snowie

I hope the bath helps you relax. It sound like a good idea. I love baths but haven’t got the possibility.

I’m surprised how much the loss of my friend means to me. I really want to cry but I can’t.

Hi @TideisTurning

How was your day?
Spinning for me is when my thoughts, memories, feelings etc go too fast. It very physical too. Spinning is painful.

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@petrichor wrote:

Hi @simplesymbol

I tried to talk to lifeline. Breathing helps even if it can be really hard. Being outside on the porch. Holding my little teddy. Reading why and who I should stay alive for.

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@petrichor I'm sorry to hear of your suffering and grief 😞

I'm glad you can express some of it here.

Sending wishes that the pain will ease for you...

Hi @MDT @NatureLover @Snowie @TideisTurning

i hope your day was ok.
i don’t want to drown in self pity but I’m pretty over this world & people. In an argument my best friend told me today that I was a bad person and that I should take my meds and call my psych to figure out they’re in the right. It’s not the first time this has happened and I’m tired of having my illness turned on me. It’s not ok, is it? Even in an argument? 😞

Hi @petrichor

No it’s not ok.

Im assuming your friend has never been in a low place before. I know my best friend doesn’t understand either and she sometimes thinks tough love will help. It doesn’t and just pushes me further down.

I don’t believe you are a bad person. Everyone has good in them.

It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot. I’ve constantly been in a world of self pity but I am seeing hope. My mornings are starting to be okish. It has taken me a while to get there but do believe in yourself and know that you do have it in you. You have shown you have strength in being able to express your feelings and concerns with us.

I live in the country and understand how hard it can be to access MH resources. I can’t even get into my gp until the end of July.

I have found that being able to contact the online numbers has helped. It’s hard as you don’t have continuity of care but each call I’ve received different advice. It has helped. The call I made today was in the late afternoon when I start to go deep into the dark. While the world is still really dark I do feel lighter in myself.

I’ve had a hot chocolate and a long hot shower and am now relaxed and ready for bed for the first time in weeks.

Please do try and call it may actually lighten the load even for a little bit.

You are in my thoughts

captain24💕