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Struggling

Struggling

Hi guys

I haven't posted in a while. I just haven't had anything to say. I don't know how to express myself. My thoughts are rushed, constant, chaotic. I have intrusive thoughts that disturb me.

I feel no joy. Every moment it feels like there is an enormous weight pressing on me, or like a cloud of heaviness around me. I don't enjoy things i used to enjoy, like baking, history, exercise, my work. I feel heaviness and numbness, that's all. I hardly talk, I never know what to say, so my relationships and struggling.

I have sent my referral to the psychiatrist today. I think they said he has space in October? That is a long time to wait 😔

I'm also unsure if I'm going to be able to finish my diploma which stresses me out, because I don't want to fail. A lady from the school wanted to call me but I feel too anxious to talk to her.

I promised my dad I would go to the gym with him this afternoon. I'm going to go through with that because I know it is a good self care thing.

I have been experiencing SI a lot, and calling out for God to end my misery.

I feel like that was a rambled, jumbled mess... but anyway 😔

X

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@Christheart sending you the biggest hug. I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way. It takes a lot of courage to share this, but I'm really glad you did ❤️ I know you said you don't have much to say, but you've given so much support to everyone here on the forums over the last few weeks. You've helped a lot of us and I hope we can do the same to you.

I'm also so glad you've reached out to your psychiatrist. And like you said, October is a long time away! Are there any other professional supports you can reach out to?

And well done on going to the gym with your dad today! Is that something you do often? Are you close with him?

In the meantime, if you're after some more support, I thought I'd link you to a few

  • Have you spoken to the SANE counsellors before? You can either call them on 1800 187 263 or you can chat to them via webchat if that suits you more. Just click here
  • If you're worried about your immediate safety, please call 000
  • You can also talk to LifeLine on 13 11 14

I know you're not alone in these feelings, and I'm sitting with you,

TuxedoCat

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@Christheart

Hi friend,

So sorry that you are struggling at the moment but I am glad that you are reaching out for support. SI can be so hard to deal with…stay strong!

I hope you start feeling better soon. I am here sitting beside you and sending you hugs and love.

Meggle

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Re: Struggling

Hey @Christheart so sorry to read where your at and how much of a struggle things feel for you 😞 can relate to a lot of where your at. I sometimes ask God to end my misery too.

did you get to the gym with your dad? How was that for you?

hoping that you can find a little hope in your days

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@Bow

Thank you for your empathy Bow.

I did get to the gym. It was ok, it was nice to see my dad, we are very close. He doesn't understand mental illness at all, like at all, but he loves me unconditionally... so I'm so blessed for that.

My mood is a little lighter after going to the gym.

Thank you Bow 💖🎀

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Oh honey I am dropping by with some love and a whole lot of hugs 🫂 @Christheart I am sorry that you are feeling so sad at present.

You are such a beautiful soul and I pray you know that God has you in the palm of His hand tonight.

This time will pass…and hopefully you can get some support while waiting to see your pdoc.

💙🤗🙏🤗💙

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@Eve7

Thank u for being so sweet eve7...

It is nice to remember it is well with my soul, even if not in my mind right now....

Thank u 💓

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Re: Struggling

Hugs @Christheart

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