Does anyone else feel trapped by life?

Hi @florencefifty

I think the way u write about relationships means u understand the depth and meaning they offer, and don't want a shallow connection

Maybe it's judt timing? I think u will be able to find that connection since you seem to have it inside u already, the vision of it

People are the greatest pain and greatest pleasure...

feeling your pain @florencefifty and your longing to be with someone. to not be alone in this big wide world. I too also know that pain. its a hard place to sit in and try and accept that perhaps im just meant to be alone. i hate when people day .... oh you can be single and happy at the same time. and while yes, you can be single and happy, there is a massive hole in your life that the majority of those that say the above who are with someone will never understand.

i was out walking the dog this morning, it was early- daughter woke super early to find easter eggs..... so i went when it was still a bit crisp. and i felt that overwhelming sense of loneliness. i had a longing to he heard and held. this time last week i was laying in an ICU bed on a ventilator, ive told one friend. that feels lonely. yeah there is a bit of shame linked to it, but there is also the fact that i just dont have many friends that could hold that space if i was to tell them. that makes me sad.

i too have people that want me here and often think that if they knew what it was like for me... really know what its life, then they would understand. they say its selfish.... i dont think it is. when your in so much pain that it feels like an only option....

im sorry, i havent really added anything to even try and make your feel a bit better. perhaps thats not what you need in this moment, perhaps you just need someone that understand that really shitty place your in and sit by you. one step at a time. one day at a time. be kind to yourself @florencefifty

I feel so simliar to what you describe, also very isolated and alone in a world that is all about connection, i have very few and distant. being close to anyone has always resulted in pain as you described. just wanted to say that I hear you, and can relate in my own way, though i dont have such a good way of explaining. existing in invisibly to the world is hard and every day gets harder.

Yes, I certainly do @florencefifty but perhaps, equally, trapped by circumstances beyond my control, that I just can't change no matter how hard I try. I'm trying to make the most of things. The struggle is constant although there are fleeting times when all feels normal. They are so good.

I keep trying new things. Perhaps I'll find some nice places and nice people to connect with. I'm ever hopeful.

Cheers to you all.

So sorry to read your similar posts @EternalFlower, @Millieme, @Bow.