What the hell is wrong with me?

thanks @Sahara

yeah i have tried alot of these places but theres only so much you can ask for. we try to manage on our own as much as we can but unfortunlly the kids do eat alot and thats one thing we do struggle with. they eat so much, even now , hubby has come home with food and coz we have had no food, they are hovering around like flys. what can i eat, what can i eat. funny but not funny. its hard living like this. dont get me wrong, we try our best for our kids and usally i do all the shopping but its just this time ,i cant, from being anxous when going out. thats why hubby had to do it this time.

I'm so glad you have your husband there to help you, @Bubbles3. My husband is also really good at going to get the groceries and helping in that way.

What ages are your children?

i have a boy who is 8,

a girl who is 7

and a boy who is 5

the 2 oldest are only 14 months apart

and then 20 months from the 5 year old to 7 year old @Sahara

They will keep you very busy, @Bubbles3! There must be a lot of activity at your house!

I never had kids but sometimes I try to imagine what it would be like. A very different life, I think. Kids keep you on your toes.

I suffer from anxiety, too, by the way.

they do keep me on my toes @Sahara

it can be hard sometimes. some time i like to to have time to myself. but i dont get it. unluss nan has them for the night. which doesnt happen very often.

i also suffer for anxiety and PTSD, cluster B personailty disorder but mostly BPD, major depressive disorder with pychcotic features and agoraphobia