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TW: traumatised

Eden1919Senior Contributor22 Feb 2022, 2:04 pm AEDT

TW: traumatised

Trigger warning: Experience of trauma with mental health services

I dont know what to do yesterday was awful like really really horrible and i am still struggling.

i was really scared to go to my appointment yesterday because i really thought that they were going to hurt me and that i was going to die and i wasnt going to go but then they called to remind me and said if i didnt come they would call the police so i went but then i was so scared when i got there and i couldnt speak and the dr kept asking questions way to fast and then they kept bringing up hospital and then they said i had to get a depot right then and there and i was so scared and i tried to leave but they came after me and then they kept saying if i didnt get the injection they would call the police and the police would take me to the hospital and they would make me have it and i was so scared i was crying and shaking and completely freaking out they eventually got me inside and gave it to me and then they said i could go home and i probably shouldnt have driven but i just had to get out of there.

and they lied and said it wouldnt make me sleepy but it did it made me very sleepy and then the rest of the day i kept like blanking out and when i would come too i was really confused and disorientated and didnt know what was happening and i lost like 6 chunks of time which idk what happened at all and now today i feel really off and i am still scared they are planning to hurt me but i also just keep getting really confused and like i will try and do something but i just stop and stand there because i am too confused to do the thing and so i will have to just sit down and wait until i feel less confused but then it starts again and it just keeps going and nothing feels real and thinking is hard and and i just feel very very very off and not right and idk what they even gave me but idk what to do with myself because i feel very uncomfortable and i cant seem to settle and i just feel really bad i tried to sleep but it was really broken and i kept waking up really confused.

sorry this is so long idk what to do has anyone had something similar happen and how did you get back to feeling normal?

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DaisydreamerSenior Contributor22 Feb 2022, 2:21 pm AEDT

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Hi @Eden1919,

I am so sorry to hear what you have been through this last 24 hours I'm hearing that you are feeling really scared at the moment, not only when it comes to seeking support, but also with the side effects you are experiencing from the depot yesterday.

When you have had depot's before, have you ever had these side effects?

I know it might feel really scary or even a bit daunting to reach out for medical support again, but it is really important if you are experiencing side effects that are impacting your health that you get the medical attention you deserve. Do you have a GP or a different medical professional that you trust to talk about the effects you are feeling? I am also going to link to after hours doctors, which are a mobile service where you can call and get medical support over the phone.

I want to make sure that you can get the support you need and deserve right now, and I hope it is okay with you but I put a trigger warning at the top of the post and the header just to make sure the post can stay live

Please take care Eden, and reach out to medical support today if you feel that the side effects are getting worse- I can understand this must feel really scary for you

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Eden1919Senior Contributor22 Feb 2022, 5:21 pm AEDT

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@Daisydreamer sorry i totally forgot about a trigger warning, um i dont really have a gp at the moment but i am hoping if i can just sleep the next few days all this will wear off it is just really confusing and idk i am hoping it doesnt happen again next time i have to go back in a week for another depot so if it hasnt stopped by then i will ask the nurse at that appointment. but yeah i am not exactly comfortable talking to medical professionals right now.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor22 Feb 2022, 6:50 pm AEDT

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@Eden1919 Hi sweetheart. I would be looking for new doctors. You know you need to be on medication ..... maybe the meds need to be changed. Have you looked into staying at a private hospital to have them looked at. private hospitals are so different from public. Am here for you. Love pea😘

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Eden1919Senior Contributor22 Feb 2022, 7:26 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins thanks. where i am living currently there is only one private hospital and it isnt great plus i am currently on a treatment order which means i have to see these doctors. so i am kind of very stuck. i think it would have been less scary if they gave me more time and were more understanding of how scared i was but they just seemed to want to get things done quickly and like i get there are time limits and stuff but i genuinely believed they were going to hurt me and idk i still dont know how to feel plus it was mostly strangers as my case manager was away and they had a student doctor and the dr i had only seen twice before and it was just a mess and yeah idk like i know they said they werent going to hurt me but i didnt believe them and yeah idk but anyway i am stuck with these doctors for now.

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