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The everlasting lifemare

The everlasting lifemare

Today I should feel happy as my team finally won an afl premiership, I am glad of that but it can't take my pains away, the all encompassing emptiness, my fear of people continues unabated not that people of any type really notice nor give a crap about me my fear is not for any real reason but because so many things are so easy for them when for me some are very hard others implausible, I have taken much pain over my limited time and I try while a struggle to improve myself, I quit drinking because I got little from it except a very short reprieve from my mind, I quit smoking, I try to increase my walking.

every day I wake to see a day with a pained tear draining from my ever tired eyes, I try to find some light among the darkness but forever find myself alone within my heart, my head and this world,

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Ok so it seems there is a new mortal kombat movie in the works I was just looking through the confirmed cast and it had some potential until I saw "Megan fox" WTF yes I know she is known for her martial arts ability, I mean I was concerned enough with Ronda rousy being cast as Sonja I think the better choice would of been holly holm based on their styles, but Megan fox shit and I was annoyed with her in the ninja turtles movies

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I think how you feel about that incident is kind of how I feel about what happened between Lloyd and Cambpell Brown (ess v haw) a few years ago? I was devestated!!

Oh I didn't know Megan Fox had any martial arts abilities? I guess you learn something new every day...

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Yes that is my point Megan fox has no martial arts abilities that I am aware of and being bought in to play a key role, she isn't a very good actress either and a pain in the ass which was why she was fired from the transformers franchise, so bought in purely as a face that's not good jeeja yanin would have been a better choice by far.

there are always incidents like that in football there is an essondon vs Bulldogs one where Mathew Lloyd came back from a broken hand and can't recall the backline player for the Bulldogs but he kept hitting and grabbing the hand that was unsporting

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Ohhhh I get you. Sarcasm over the internet is hard 🙂 Yeah I would totally agree with that, not much acting talent at all.

That's terrible!! I guess that's sport for you. Not many "good sports".

My shift is coming to a close unfortunately @Redraw 😞 But it was lovely catching up with you again! I hope your movie night goes well. I'll catch you next time!!

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Yes sarcasm not to easy, well ciao for now, hopefully at least some of the cast is false as some have real potential

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We all fade away, though some of us were never noticed anyway.

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Hi @Redraw

An ominous statement ....are you ok tonight?

I noticed you and so do many others here. What's happening in your world today?

Regards,

Frog

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Rarely these days am I ok, and with no support network past or present it's all on me it don't get lighter

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You would think after all these years it would get easier or less painful to be used, overlooked, ignored, exploited, alone, hurt, but sadly it doesn't fair weather friends fall away just as everyone else, girlfriend never had one of those, well I guess that would mean being noticed or talked to, people used to talk to me, as a way of gaining my insight into a given situation, perhaps I appear as a monster, I don't know I try to retain an ever slipping grip, merely a thread remains finer than a babies hair yet I try my best to hold on, more often than not I have trouble understanding why but it is what it is. All things I have been through no matter how bad or evil they were have made me want to be better, nicer, more generous, more loving, more honest, more loyal, honourable, of course the fear, the terror and the pain never goes away and I see that all these things everything I am is worthless in this world it means nothing, no one cares, it likely never would of no matter what era it was. I am destined to endure all and face what life remains alone, unloved, and unwanted I was going to add an example of something similar but I can't think of a single event or anything similar that's sad and scary

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Hi @Redraw

You sound incredibly sad and yet hopeful at the same time. Are you getting any professional help?

You mentioned that you want to be better, nicer, more generous, more loving, more honest etc. Have you made any plans so that you can achieve these wonderful goals?
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