Bit Fed Up

So i was meant to see my pdoc today and the whole plan fell through. Apparently "due to covid" the doctor wasn't even told i was in the office. Work that out. He rang me instead, but my phone is on silent... not the point. It's like they were using covid as an excuse.

The receptionist was defensive and so i just let slide. Rebooked. Pdoc rang me on the way back and I was in the car.

meds sitution is gonna change with his help so that's good. I told him about work and he said it sounded like the job was not suited to me, or indeed roles like it,.

I am also fed up with feeling sexually repressed - there i said it. I can talk about this with my psych on wednesday though so that's okay. My friend whom I have hung out with is a bit confusing to speak with because english isn't her first langauge. But oh well, nothing ventured nothing gained. Who knows whats happening there, but I think I can see nothing will. I am fed up of that in its own right anyways - It's a growing trend but at least now that I have realised why it was happening i can stop it in the future.

I need to be wary of these thought patterns.

I have some tea and binarual beat music on atm.

Just winding myself down for the day.