MrsomebodySenior Contributor
Bad experience with therapists
I thought therapists were more like doctors or dentists where you would get some sort of straight answer and it would be extremely professional. I had no idea it would be talk therapy if I did I wouldn't have gone. Anyway I had a nightmarish childhood long story short. The first psychologist I seen told me I was fat as soon as I walk in the door even though I'm 6 ft 1 and was only 110 at the time. That's ok because she told me the truth and I accept it I'm actually glad for that. I only honestly wanted a female's opinion on psychology I did not know she would be around 26 or so. Living life as an unattractive man is not fun especially when you're young. To be honest it's actually unbearably painful. I finally reached the point where I could live with myself. When I seen this woman watching her body language towards me was so hurtful. I honestly thought she would have been like a seasoned professional 10 years older than me. The worst part was when I spoke about my 20s and my lack of social value watching her screw her nose up and squill in discomfort is something that just reminded me of where I belong. I swore I would never put myself in that position ever again although being stuck in a room with someone like this what can you do. I seem to others after this trying to undo the damage although I received a very similar response although more professional I was completely treated as an invisible person and a dollar sign. For me this was the final straw I now find myself not caring about life or how long it is I also find myself feeling nothing for other human beings. Since those days I have enjoyed other people's pain something I never would have done before something I thought impossible. I wish I could go back to the days where I believed in human beings and their nature although I feel those days are gone. So I guess my question is has anybody else felt like this or had this experience
