not coping with New job

And... it's gone. No more job for me. Apparently I expected the job to be something different then it was?? No, I expected to have a proper schedule that was well communicated to me, some actual guidance and training and not a manager who clearly didn't want to put up with me. I guess I feel somewhat relieved... don't know how I'm going to explain 'lasted 2 weeks on the job' to any potential future employer especially since my last job lasted 5 weeks before they purged 11 people for no reason.

I'm sorry @Campbarry Sounds like you have a lot going on and this has been a stressful ordeal. You haven't been treated fairly but sounds like you are relieved and might be able to find something that suits you better? Here if you want to chat about it.

Thank you @Paperdaisy , I am somewhat relieved if frustrated. I'm talking to someone soon, so I'll be okay, but I really appreciate the offer

I don't think anyone is actually following this anymore but a little update if someone comes along and wants to know how this story ends 😂

I actually feel a lot less stressed, I've done a few nice things for myself yesterday and today, and not going back to an environment with a toxic supervisor who was taking their frustration out on me is really relieving - I've had some bad news from my family, and I need to go visit ASAP, but not being in that environment any longer has given me lots of room to cope and I'm handling it okay.
The hiring squad for the company that the farm was under gave me a call to get my side of the story, they seemed really willing to listen, learn and prevent this from happening to someone else... they want to keep me on board at a different site it would mean I have to relocated though.
It's only two hours away and I have really wanted to move out - sometime when my stress is high I can easily turn down decisions like this so that I can stay in my comfort zone where I feel safe, so I've asked for time to think on it and discuss with others - but taking this opportunity would fulfil some of my goals, and I did enjoy the work, just not the environment - like I mentioned I was starting to feel like I could do it for the rest of the year.
I've never rented before so that's a bit scary, and I would want to rent, I've done the share house thing and I don't think I can do it again. I'm speaking to my disability job services provider today to see if maybe there is someone I can discuss how to do all that with. Honestly, a 42hr work week at $23/hr base rate, I think if I found a little place for $350 or less per week, plus with the relocation fund offered by the government for job-seekers - I could probably do it... the cat and I might have to do without proper furniture for a little while (he has his cat tree, and beds though), but I can slowly build up the basics, I wouldn't need anything extravagant, and if I manage my money right I could even start adding to my savings. And it's not so far away that I would feel isolated from my family - I already moved two hours away for uni - and it's close enough to a city that I can get a good mental health team in place... I really think I should just take the leap, it would probably do me some good rather than just stagnating like I have been, it feels like a more exciting prospect the more I think about it.

We are here @Campbarry and glad to hear things are looking up. Sorry about the bad news re your family member but sounds like you are feeling resilient today. I hope this continues for you 💖

@Paperdaisy she's ready to go, and I think that makes it a bit easier, but I haven't seen her in a while and just hoping I can make it in time to see her off so she knows I care, I was planning on going this weekend but now need to push it forward, and I guess no longer having to work lets me do that - so there's a bit of a plus in a trying time :). Thank you for your kind words as always.