Cant make a decision!

Im finding it so hard to make a solid decision about anything when i dont know what the outcomes will be! Its making it so hard to decide what my next step is...

Im a nurse. I graduated in 2018. The last year or so ive begun to really hate being a nurse due to a range of reasons that ive previously posted about.

So i sit here, unemployed still and wondering what to do next.

I thought i might like to work in admin but even if i did that full time i wouldnt be earning the same wage. I still doubt myself in everything i do and could possibly do. I feel like i wouldnt be good enough to do that sort of work.

Tomorrow morning im supposed to have an interview for an admin position but close to cancelling that interview because of this self doubt and because my son and i are sick with possibly covid right now. The interview is via skype.

Then i had a friend message me today asking how my midwifery studies are going and i replied to her honestly, that it became too stressful to do.

And now im sitting here questioning everything, what direction my life should go now. What direction to take my career in.

Do i try out the health admin sort of jobs?

Do i continue to be a nurse but go study child and family health(community nursing)?

Do i keep going with my midwifery goal i set 10 years ago? Do i continue to under graduate midwifery or drop out of it and just keep applying for the post graduate midwifery?

I hate having to make this decision. I hate having no one to consult about these sort of decisions(single mum). I wish i had someone else to choose my path for me. I feel like ive wasted so much time already.

Started uni at 20/21, finished uni when i was 24. Did a new grad position when i didnt complete because fulltime nursing work burnt me out severely. Have been in aged care for longer than i hoped for which has lead me to hate nursing now so i feel like getting out of aged care completely will possibly reignite something. Spent the last 2 years doing the under graduate midwifery course which i found too stressful while working, i was again getting burnt out. So now i have a massive HECS debt because of all this wasted time. I desperately want another baby, thats also something i hoped to have happen sooner than now. My son in 11 later this year and still only one child, i have the biggest mum guilt for not giving him a sibling. It also makes me not want to study again right now so i could have a second child. If i pick up study again now then id have to put off that plan and wont end up having m second before i turn 30(yes this is a massive deal for me).

Feeling majorly deflated with how my life has turned out to be now😓