I miss him

Tonight I am struggling.

I know my ex has HER there and I struggle with what I know they will be doing despite the claims she's just a friend and wouldn't do anything because she 'MARRIED'.

I feel for her husband. He probably thinks she's going to visit a couple and probably has no idea what they've been doing behind his back

I mean seriously you don't send the types of pics she's sent, and then travel for 4+ hours to be 'friends'.

I struggle with how quickly I've been replaced 10 years we were together and now he's got a tart warming his bed.

I miss him tonight. I miss the good times that we had, despite everything, despite everything he did. I miss that P***K.

I wish I didn't it would make it easier, I'm trying to be kind to myself, but truth be known I hate myself for missing him and all the good times that we did have.

• I miss coming home after a 12 hour day working 2 jobs like today to him.
• I miss the laughter, the company.
• I miss sleeping beside him.
• I miss our drinks together.
• I miss our stupid conversations
• I miss cooking for him.
• I miss our house.
• I miss our dreams and plans for the future.

It's horrible. I wish I could just wake from this nightmare.

I wish I could just be over this