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@StuF 0o0o0o0oo... lucky you living in the bush! i live in the city. wish i lived in the bush.

Still in the suburbs of Sydney @Bunniekins just a very bushy area

@StuF well you have the best of both worlds then :D. i always wanted to live on a farm and have horses. you know i was talking to eldest the other day and he asked if i knew where i would be at 60 when i was 21 would i have changed things and i said no because i love my kidults warts and all. would i have done some things differently sure but we all learn by our mistakes and become better people by living through them.

We wouldn't be who we are without the experiences @Bunniekins

Absolutely some of it sucks, but yeah

@StuF thats true StuF. cant have the good without the bad so they say.

Indeed @Bunniekins

Anyway, me off to bed. Up early for work in the morning (but let's face it, I'd be going to bed about now anyways! lol)

Good night

Catch you tomorrow!

@StuF good night StuF sleep well 😄

@Arbie_wun Cool link you added about horses 👍🏼

@Bunniekins I agree with you there, we learn from our mistakes, and they can make us a better person. Sometimes we don't see our mistakes or our faults because we are blinded by the closeness of things. It can take a good friend to advise you of the problem and assist you in getting through that.

Thankfully I have a good friend outside of here, unfortunately I also hurt them because of my array of issues but the understand that this is the "evil" me and that the "good" me is who I really am. They are also helping me because they experienced the worst of the human condition in a former partner. They don't want to see me become that monster and I for one certainly don't want to end up that 'evil'.

@Arbie_wun when i am medicated is the real me but when i am not i am out of control demon. i hear voices and get delusional. i never want to go through that again or indeed put those i love through that again. you would not believe my delusions they are out of this world. sometimes i remember but mostly i dont my pdoc says it is my mind protecting me from ptsd. my children and mother keep me grounded. do you believe in evil? when i think of evil i think of hitler or stalin. some might think i am but i am not really. that is the scary thing i am not evil. i never wanted to hurt anyone or anything. it was like a altered reality.

I once saved a woman who was being robbed in broad daylight by some street thug. does someone evil do that? hitler loved animals, bundy volunteered for lifeline ..... life is complex. people are complex beings.