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Friends and MH
Hi to whoever is reading I've come to a point in life where I'm experiencing more negatives in life then what I was used to. I understand that if you flip a coin 10 times the outcome could be different each of those 10 times cause it always going to be heads or tails. But I'm pushing forward cause I still have hope inside of me for things to work out - as after taking meds for the last 5 years I only recently accepted my diagnosis and found meds which work as they should. For a person who is pretty easy going and maintaining a simple outlook, I've managed to become complex through situations in life and being impulsive which I'm working on fixing. MH and friends...:
there's a part in that hyperlink which focuses on not trying to push away your friends because it's the mental illness not your friends and I wanted to get a perspective on the situation rather than what going on inside my head.
I've been friends with this small group for the past 5-6 years and feel they are becoming more comfortable around me and have noticed a slight shift to the friendship and how it impacts me. There's a question to this post but I want you guys to know the situation before giving me an answer if you wish.
now things aren't really going well for me after finding the right medication as well I've experienced bullying from a handful of people in different age groups in different settings, I was unable to secure a full time job (which I will be trying again in the new year), and the slight shift in attitude towards me by my still friends. So things are not working out. Dw I'm not blaming myself but I think being a bit more sociable will help in this situation and I love people I do but I think I have to reengage in a different way or not be too hard on myself as dealing with the complex MH situation and juggling life, I wasn't able to do off the bat and may need a second go at that. I'm really trying I am and I don't want any sympathy it's my fault for letting myself get to that position in life, but family support has been unbiased and I want to be treated the same way by my friends - I'm just reaching out as I'm not accepting or coming to terms in what it means to be a man by my friends.
I feel like I'm being used now and wanted a clear picture of what you guys might think, whether it's my illness like the article has said and I don't want to rush off and make a decision I'll regret later by being impulsive. Because I'm contemplating cutting my friends from my life and finding ones who will respect me as I am. It is one sided at the moment just what I am saying but I will give examples just to get a fresh look at it from rather than in my own head.
1. they will target the jokes towards me, when I notice the others rarely get the same treatment.
2. I will get asked to get something to help them out as if they can't get the thing themselves once again the others rarely get the same treatment.
3. they will listen but not have a response when I open up about my mental health.
and it's continuos I feel like I'm being devalued and belittled and they pretend to sit their like kings while doing this and this is the point it's come down to and I guess my next step of action is to talk to them about this situation and see their response and see if they will change otherwise I'd rather have no friends than crappy ones.
so the question is, relating to the article and if it's my MH that is making me feel this way or am I truly being devalued, usually everything is fine and dandy and they will have random moments when this happens. Like it's not planned or anything just being themselves but, I feel like I'm not valued there.
im putting it out there as I would like a take from other peoples point of view, I sort of already have my mind made up about what's happening, but what do you all think?
