wrong family

Day by year by year, I wait to hear the words, " your not good enough, your not apart of the family" i feel so diffeeent and insicure. I look different I am different. I have nothing the same as them but they all look the same. I feel
Like the outsider the one that is never noticed. I just don't know where to turn. My siblings get what they want when the want it and I get nothing. If they want my things they can just take them but if I want something of these I just get in trouble. I feel that I'm just not important. I'm always pushed aside. I just don't know where to turn. Or what to do.