Daily Check In Space

Thank you @Tinker67

How I am feeling ... about 3

Problem: Got a bit cranky with one of son's team. Probably not good, but I am so so so tired of being patient and doing the right thing. Not sure of what is being a good advocate for his needs and what is being a pushover.

Self Care: Have a long shower and put on lotion.

Hello @cloudcore

1) How are you feeling? --- I am feeling a 3 right now

2) What is one thing you have struggled with,-- close family members , my mum`s confusion

and one thing you have done well?--- I have paid all bills and done everything that is needed to be done
3) What is one nice thing you can do for yourself today? resting in bed and doing word games

@Appleblossom, @Krishna , @Carlo , @Bunniekins , @Determined

Hi @Shaz51 Hmmmm about a 5 today. Christmas Day looming and knowing another year without my girl with us is a struggle. So did what I do when feeling this way and drove to the ocean early to float. Bunkered down for the afternoon to avoid the hot weather. Christmas is definitely not my favourite time of year and am truly relieved when it passes.

Sending you lots of tender hugs my friend @Krishna

I wish my children were around too but looks like I will not see any of them this Christmas xoxo

It has been very hot up here all week

It's hard isn't it @Shaz51 not having your kids around at Christmas. Hoping to see my son in February which will be lovely. Has been 2 years due to Covid. Very hot here also and more of the same over the coming days. Stay cool my friend. 🥰

@Appleblossom I am about a 6. Is boiling hot here will be a long night.

@Bunniekins

6 is not too bad. Feelings can shift so much. Good you are better than yesterday.

I have had more of a 5 day. Had a bit of anger Not really sure about using numbers for feelings because I am still struggling to identify high energy which is different to joy which is not as energetic as anger. My confusions around energy, anger at self and anger at others are tricky for me. Sometimes high energy is good but sometimes it is anger and goes to my neck and I feel drained when it is done.

I did go for a beach walk and did my gardens, which was good for me.

@Appleblossom Hi Apple 🙂 yes thank you I am much better today but I still want my post up.on Monday. I will be very upset again if it is not, Your dealings with you own anger sounds tricky. I am happy that past times such as gardening and taking a walk on the beach distracts those feelings. You are a good lady

@Bunniekins It is my understanding that self harm arises from anger that has not found its target and so is turned against the self. I never had much anger growing up as I just went with everybody's flow and had no idea to expect or denande anything. I also tried to understand my siblings self harm.. Now I sometimes feel anger out how I have been treated and rejected all the time, so I do know what it feels like, but still uncertain about when it is good energy, as I was exhausted from working too hard and depression for a long time. Not even sure which is depression and which is plain exhaustion or what is grief. It has all been mixed up together.

Therapists have been totally useless in helping me identify these things I have to do it all myself.