Not feeling good this last while.

Hi All,

I haven't been feeling great for around a month or so. My PTSD has been playing up over my ex putting in a property settlement and claiming all these things that she shouldn't have a claim to. I got this letter from her lawyer that skipped around her being the perpetrator of domestic violence and it painted me as having all these benefits of living in my home while she's mostly unemployed and living in one room at her friend's house. It overrides all the mental hurt that i've had for nearly four years. There's no acknowledgement of the abuse and violence that I suffered from her. I felt really disgusted with his letter. It's so typical. She always has to win and so far .seems to be doing so. Recently her access to our daughter was changed from two days a week to three and a half, and it just seems to have enboldened her and now there is a feeling that she is just trying to dominate me again. I don't want to go back to regular counselling, My lawyer says that I should just let her do the work with the other lawyer and get a good outcome. There is a feeling I just need to ride this out and then once I know what is going to happen, I can work on it, I just wish I had a really good mate that I could share all this with and get it out of my head.

On top of that, i suppose like so many people I have been working from home for nearly the last two years, My job just doesn't seem to have much meaning anymore. I've been hoping that as the lockdown here in Melbourne is over, I would be able to go back to work, but the bosses are saying January next year. I feel lonely and isolated and it has gotten to me.

As it happens, I also suffer from Meniere's Disease and for about two months now have been in a cycle of vertigo, vomiting and the uncertainty of knowing when and where I am going to have an attack. On bad days it's just bed and not being able to do much but ride out the attack. On good days it's an earful of tinitus and hearing my heartbeat thumping. I'm on medication but the doctor told me that it doesn't really do that much for it. it doesn't.

So all this stuff has been happening and I needed to get it out of my head.

Thanks for your support and for reading.