wild_roseSenior Contributor
TW: Mentions self harm
I don't know what the worst thing about falling again and fracturing my shoulder. The fact that people think either my partner did it or that I did it deliberately for attention as a way of manipulation because my relationship is in the gutter and no matter what I do I can't get anything right.
It's hard emotionally that people think my partner did it, he's too kind and couldn't hurt a fly if he tried.
The fact people think I did it to myself deliberately makes me angry and not just a little bit, but like a raging bull. Why would I deliberately incapacitate my dominant shoulder for attention. As if breaking the elbow in my other arm earlier this year wasn't bad enough and didn't mess with my head enough.
The thought of having to go through it all again. Why the fuck would I.
The only people who believe me are those who don't know my past history of self harm and my own mother. I told her what people are thinking and told her I didn't do it to myself and she said she knew that breaking bones was never my way of self harming and never will be
It really hurts because I can tell from the way people act around me that they don't believe it and think I'm lying. I'm not another broken bone was the last thing I needed or wanted.
I want to scream for people to just believe me but I know it's not going to help the situation.
There is still so much stigma and assumptions made isn't there? I feel sad you had to go through this 
