MDTSenior Contributor
I can't articulate why I feel so average and depressed
I think I feel overwhelmed with all the things going on in my life at the moment.
While it's good to have "things" going on, I still feel overwhelmed. Think this is due to my mindset and my attitude towards what is happening.
In a list this is what is happenig:
- I start a new full time job next Monday and I am worried it will be majoirty work from home - which I really do not like 😕 and I am worried that it will effect me negatively because of this fact. I was told there will be 1 day of work in the office, but I really really want that to be working in the office majority of the time. I am worried there are so many apple carts that could be upset
- my analyst role is going okay, but just as I feel that I am really doing some good work it feels like it's going to conflict with my new work which will be quite demanding due to it being full time
- I have started chatting with a girl from an app and I am worred things may be accelerating way too fast. I also feel like it's a "situation" waiting to happen. I really don't know where I stand with any of it, but I am also aware that if I keep on shutting myself out to this sort of thing then it'll be a circle of crap where I end up feeling alone. So I'm just really apprehensive about anything at all really
- The further study next year will be good, but it is full time and it's possibly quite accelerated. That's a bridge I am yet to cross because I still need to get my stupid transcript from the place I was "studying" at this year in order to actually get accepted. Then I also need to wait on the government funding to be approced which could take me all the way to Jan. It's just a "thing" that's hanging over my head and I can't do anything to speed it up because the institution is still taking its own sweet time to do nothing. I'm actually quite angry about it tbh.
- I feel this week is getting away from me fast and I still have things to do.
- I want to get back into an exercise regime and it's going to change next week anyway. I am bout to go to gym now to help my mood.
