Dear Forumites - Onwards I Go

Dear Forumites

For some time now I have turned to this forum for support in dark moments. In moments where I felt that there was no hope and that my mental health was taking its toll on me. This much is still true and I think those moments were hard. Sharing them however, in amongst a community of people with the same experiences taught me a lot. It was tremendously helpful for me to find this forum supportive.

Well today I have a few good pieces of news to share.

Today I was formally offered a new job. This is with the same organisation i interviewed for back earlier in the year. They kept my details. They rang me again and then I interviewed again. I have been offered this job. The reason I feel good about it is quite simple - it's something I could see myself doing. It isn't just "a job" but it is a "my job". I think this is a big difference. I wish I got it sooner, but I realised that this was motivated by my attitude towards my old colleagues just gone. As much as I would like to say to them all "That I have a new job now" it would be motivated by ill intent. This would be wrong. I don't see why I need to boast to people with whom I had no interest in keeping in touch with. I have grown from this.

Yesterday I told my psychiatrist where I had been and what I had been up to - I had not seen him since March. I explained to him that I had a whole job between seeing him last time and yesterday.
He told me that I had come a long way since seeing him first. And for once this actually felt like it wasa true thing.

I guess I just wanted to say thanks to the forumites who have supported me.

Onwards I go