no one is listening

i am struggling with my eating but nobody is listening to me about it and everyone just keeps ignoring it because i am not underweight but i honestly feel like this will be the end of me one day. i have tried EVERYTHING i can, the butterfly foundation, private psychologists, public eating disorder treatment team (they wouldnt even look at me because i had too many other issues) and private clinics arent an option for me at the moment either. i have tried self help i have tried anything and everything i can think of but i am either turned away or it doesnt help i have been living with this for over 15 years and the damamge it has done to my body is ridiculous but because i am overweight anytime i go to anyone they just tell me to eat healthy and loose weight. i dont know what to do except cry and give in to the voice in my head i am too tired to fight it anymore and no one will help me so i might as well just let it take me.