Need help making a decision

I need help with making an important decision. I need to apply for a transfer with the Office of Housing, to move to another house, but I don't know where I want to live. I'm extremely anxious about it.

I have been living in an area of regional Victoria for the past 10 years and I'm very unhappy here. I'm unhappy with my housing agency, my neighbours and the house itself.

I'm not sure if I'm unhappy with the area or just those other factors. Maybe if I was financially independent, and I didn't have to live in an Office of Housing house, and deal with the crappy, non-existent services here, I would like it. I don't know.

This area is like a redneck backwater in terms of services.

Before this I had never lived in a block of units (on a shared property), I had always had my own house, and I absolutely hate it. And I had never had any problems with my neighbours before I moved here.

Ideally I would like to live in rural Victoria in a quiet area with lots of space (I have no problem driving long distances to see my therapist in Melbourne).

But my therapist thinks it will be too isolating for me and she thinks I should live closer to Melbourne. She thinks I will have more/better access to mental health services and support living closer to Melbourne.

I haven't lived close to Melbourne for many years and I think I would hate it. I think it would be too stressful for me because there are so many people and there is so little space and so much noise. I need open space and quiet.

And I don't know if I would find better (mental health) support living closer to Melbourne. Maybe these days mental health services are just sh*tty everywhere?

The problem is, with my depression, I have no passion or enthusiasm for life and I have no idea where I want to live.

Sometimes I try to work out where I want to live by asking myself "If I won Tattslotto, and I could live anywhere I wanted, where would I want to live?" but nothing comes to me.

I know that I would like a bigger house where I could have more dogs but that's about it.

I would be very grateful for your help.