Trying to get away from negative feelings

Hello friends I havnt posted much lately but here goes Im still trying to be positive but at the same time negative emotional reactions have gotten the better of me,Im still trying my best though,good news lockdown is over for my area for now so hopefully can get out of the house a bit more on a regular basis ,really need to anyway hopefully try to plan seeing people again if possible,one family member from the household is getting out tomorow to do something so hopefully I can too even if its just going for a walk or hopefully spend time with special someone when I can as that would be a good thing,this last lockdown definetly had me on edge about things so need to get out more and try to see who I can see of different people,then I might feel better in short I need more fun outside of the house with different people if possible,cause who knows when there could be the next lockdown ? lets hope tomorow turns out to be a good day,eeven spending time with special someone would help,things have felt so out of control lately all around with different things in general hope there can be positive steps forward with people I havnt seen for a while cause that would make a big difference to my moods at the momment ,bring some hapiness back ,its time to try to be social again,Ive spent more than enough time thinking,sleeping,worrying about everything ,its time to do instead positive things,positive plans even if it is just going for walks but hopefully special someone wants to spend time with me if the timing is ok have to wait and see though,my patience has become quite thin with most things despite working on self improovement its time to spend time with others lets hope something good and helpfull works out tomorow,I do need to get some sleep but am currently awake as I dozed off to sleep a few hours ago,might also try to organise to other things outside the house like go visit some relatives for lunch or go shopping or something just to get out as much while can get out for now,Ive spent more than enough time working on myself time to do other things too maybe that will bring some happiness back and a sense of achieving something other than just acheiveing things for self,acheive something for others too lets hope I can have a good day and find something an enjoyable something to do thats prefrebaly outdoors