Panic Attacls

Well here I am again.... 4:20am I've spent the last hour n half trying to get control of a panic attack. I'm feeling much more stable now. I've just come to New Zealand for my very first os trip. My Besty invited me which was lovely.
She's been great - but she is not someone who displays affection or is in any way reassuring and comforting. She took me to stay a few days at a friends who lives in somewhat of a shed. Though she is a lovely person - this place is cold and I'm also suffering some serious alergies from nearby kiwi and avo orchards- all around in fact. My chest is tight and full of crap- my throat is swollen and my nose is stuffy and baaaaam maaaaam with the panic attacks. I don't know what to do. We're leaving this area tomorrow but meantime it's a put up job. I just messaged with a friend from London and that helped. It's so much harder being in another country. I just wish I had better strategies in place. I shouldn't have them at all ;(