Wow @utopia, I'm so very grateful for your kindness, compassion and readiness to help. I hope I didn't sound self-pitying. I actually have an amazing support network (both personal and health professionals) who I've been working with for years.
I have a lot of friends and family who aren't scared by my depression and an amazing boyfriend who is coming to stay this weekend (we're long distance) and as I've had a particularly hard week with my Black Dog he has offered to warm my socks in the microwave to make me feel better. Make of that what you will 🙂
I've come to these forums though looking for people like yourself (and myself really) as in my darkest moments it doesn't matter how much I'm loved and cared for by all these people around me - they still don't know how effed up it can be to be mentally unwell. And that's such a lonely feeling. I already feel less alone by being in touch with this forum community. Much in part to your messages, so thank you!
As for the tiredness, I think it's part of my depression (have you heard of dysthymia?) and I just have to live with being tired all the time. But I'm functional (coffee helps) so I still feel lucky for that!
I hope you have some nice plans for the weekend yourself?