I'm not coping

I'm not coping with any of this

Just want to live under a rock

some garbage spam in my inbox after i signed up to a date platform really annoyed me - well what use is it to be signing up to that in the middle of a pandemic? The only thing you can do is online and that is rubbish.

I am beginning to think I will be on my own forever. By the time I actually find a proper job and be able to move out... I'll already be in my 30s.

I really get sick of trying so many things in life. Splitting myself across three "realms" (work, uni and intern) has been too much of a test. I don't feel I've been successful at any of them. Well maybe I won't know until it's all done and dusted. When all is said and done?

I guess I just have to keep going. That's it. Just keep going. Even if I don't know where I will end up. Anything else is a distraction or unhelpful to think about. I have to take the stoic approach because anything else lands me in deep trouble.

I felt I have lost my mind in all this pandemic and I'm only coping by holding scrapes of a mind together. Somehow.

I'm really over feeling like this most of the time. I feel I should be independent of circumstances around me - should not be getting down and depressed. Should be able to cope and such. But Idk anymore.

I really don't.

I'm 27 and I am loser in life and I can't figure out if it's my own fault or not