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Hi @TAB @Former-Member @Bunniekins @Arizona @Snowie @frog @AussieRecharger @Meowmy and others around

Feeling quite tired after my bike ride. I noticed I did sweat a fair bit.

Feeling kinda blue. I put this down to 2 things - sleep schedule is still all over the shop. Getting up too late. And also, not looking forward to next Wednesday.

I want to look into some stuff my psychologist sent me so I can do that tonight I think.

Wont be having games night online with my friends which is better. It's always better in person as it's a board game.

Have business meeting tonight. May say so e stuff or may not. Dunno.

Woke up feeling as bad as I did on Tuesday when i got upset. I'm putting it down to more general things as today is very different to Tuesday.

The next few months I think will be quiet. I need to just focus on things. What I NEED to do rather than what my mind is telling me is important

Take it easy @MDT

the only way to live @TAB

Yeah was texting an old work colleague. Was talking about how "careerism" seems to be a thing now. So much of my generation are driven by it. But they are also driven by dopamine hits (msm, dating apps - usually used for sex and not much more - and careerist things like LinkedIn).

The ability to stop for just a bit and reflect on who you are in the grander scheme of things, indeed, in the universe and your place in it seems lost.

I feel so many of my generation are driven by things or notions or narratives.
To aspire is good - but I mean this varies from person to person. I aspire to do my best in a role (paid) that I am interested in. The luxury of a dream job is a bit lost on me because I guess I have lived in the real world. But this could be a good thing - When one lives in the real world, you are aware of reality and the ways in which it can get in the way of rigidly defined career goals.

I am finding new doors are opening while while old doors are being closed. Doors to rooms I didn't even think of entering before.

Where is the danger in my life? It lies in the balance of reality and desire for my life and direction in it. I think that's dangerous because it's a continual back and forth between the harshness of reality and the aspirations of desire. That's drives people crazy. Daresay it has me lol

@Former-Member

@TAB how you been ?

Still at work @MDT just sore for couple days now some gut thing playing up
Anyway hope you're alright hopefully I will get home soon. People working for want to employ me as opposed to being like an outside hire from capital city
Said yes
Feeling a bit funny guess give them my ph no
Thought I offered it and boss said something then nothing happened
Guess just tell them before I go home. Im not in tomorrow