Wondering what to do

HI All,

I have PTSD and with that, anxiety and all that comes with it. In one way I just need to vent and by writing this hope that I can get back on the right path again. But I am also looking for suggestions that you might have to get out of a rut.

At the beginning of the year my Psychologist and I reached the conclusion that I was doing good and that I knew what to do to get myself through the day. I had been seeing her for years and it felt right to end the sessions because I was confident that I had the techniques and the knowledge to make myself OK.

My Psychologist had emailed me various resources to use and I was working on them. I was also doing things like journalling and drawing, some meditation, reaching out to friends and family. When I had bad days, I was thinking this will pass and next week will be better. I had given up smoking and drinking and I felt confident that I had worked myself out and things were going to get better.

But I seem to have fallen back into the pattern of being scared and depressed and not feeling to good about myself again. I don't seem to have the energy/inclination to get back into using those techniques that I was taught to make myself feel better. At the same time, I don't want to go back into therapy, because I know what I need to do already. I just need to do it. I know things like lockdowns and all that don't help, but I was just wondering if anyone had any advice about getting back on track.

Thanks