ArizonaSenior Contributor
I feel sad
I feel sad and I'm not sure why. I thought I would start writing about it and see what comes out. I don't mind feeling sad because I usually can't feel anything at all.
I'm in bed with my hot water bottle under my feet and a cup of tea. My Pug is snoring softly beside me. I haven't had a shower tonight because I'm too tired (and it's too cold). I was about to watch Midsomer Murders but then I realised that I feel sad.
I think it has something to do with talking to my therapist (I spoke to her tonight on the phone). I think I feel sad because it has been 20 years since I last saw her and my life is very bad now.
And when we spoke on the phone she said she doesn't think I'm capable of working at all at the moment. This is of course true but it made me sad. I said I would like to work one day but now I'm thinking maybe that will never happen because I'm too old. How am I going to achieve my dream of having a bigger house and as many dogs as I want if I can't work?
I will watch Midsomer Murders now. It's my go-to comfort show.