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In lockdown are ya mate @StuF?

@saltandpepper

Yup. I ain't got it bad, but it's dragging on!

Yeah I reckon @StuF

@saltandpepper

You in lockdown too?

Nah I'm in Tas @StuF have only been through 1 lockdown here. Do you know when it's lifted?

My mind has been running in overdrive the past few days. Skipping through from one crazy thought to the next. I'm trying to wrap my head around all this. It's challenging. I don't know where to start or what to do with ut all reallt.

perhaps still in a state of shock? I don't know. Its likely. Finding it a task to string my thoughts together. It's all just a mess in there. More than I even realised. I don't know what I'm thinking anymore. Just trying ro make sense of things that don't make sense. Things that people shouldn't have to make sense of.

I keep arguing with myself about the validity of my emotions here. I'm confused. Very. And I keep asking myself why I'm like this. Answers obvious.

I don't know where to start with processing this but what I want to get off my chest right now is this: The first sexual experience I had (that I can recall anyway) was one I did not ask for or initiate. I was young. Too young to even know or understand what was going on. I didn't understand at the time. I repressed that memory, blocked it out until years later when I was in early years of high school. Talking with mates about things they had all (claimed to have) done sexually. And it came back. Not all of it. Only enough. Beginning/ending. Only snippets in between.

I think I don't face the reality of what happened here nearly enough.

I'm listening @saltandpepper

Hi @saltandpepper I've been offline for a bit. Just catching up.

Shock would be a reasonable response.

Hey @Anastasia @StuF @Peri hope you're travelling ok.

@saltandpepper

Supposed to end 28th of August. Likely to be extended. Anyway, no point getting too caught up in it. My living circumstances would the envy of many in many ways

@saltandpepper

I would think shock is to be expected. Must be harrowing. I can't begin to...even come up with words!

Hi @frog @Anastasia