Help

Wish I could help @saltandpepper ... but I am really struggling myself right now, and have nothing left to give.

Im sorry @Emelia8 if anything you wanna talk about im here

I know @saltandpepper .. thank you. 🙏💕

Ugh not going to lie, feels like im being crushed under this wave of depression. It's surrounding me. Pulling me down. I feel it. Pulling, pushing, crushing, holding me down. I don't fight it. I can't fight it. My dog is watching me and i swear she can see it. She can see everything I'm hiding. I hope my boy doesn't see it. Keep some semblance of sanity together for his sake. Survive another day. Survive today and get plastered again tonight. Survive now drown later.

Could very easily crumble right now. Fall apart. Break into pieces. Feeling very weak. Feeling defeated. Feeling like giving up. Feeling like this is all too hard. It's always too hard. One thing after another. Too much. Too many. Just pathetic. This is pathetic. I am pathetic. I am useless. I am losing my mind.

And I thought yesterday was long. I don't want to be sober. This parenting thing is getting in the way of all the selfish things I wanna do

Want. To. Get. High. Want. To. Get. High. Want. Want. Want. Want. Want. Want. Want. Want.

Hi @saltandpepper

I'm sorry to hear that you're having a difficult time right now. It can be very lonely and isolating feeling like everything is falling apart but its great to see that you have reached out. I really want to encourage you to reach out to Lifeline on 13 11 14 so you can talk to someone about how you're feeling at the moment. You can also click here to book a call with one of the Peer Workers at SANE, however, this service is not a crisis service.

Take care,

CalmingNature

maybe @Former-Member not sure what helpline will do for me at this point

@saltandpepper, son , whats wrong