JayLContributor
Trying to nurture myself
Haven't had a vent for a while on here. I'm not doing too bad, still get my ups and downs but the downs are a lot less severe. I seem to have found the right balance of medications. Although I resisted quite a lot initially, new medications have actually been helping with my mood and sleep.
I've managed to do a couple of good things. Started exercising and going to the gym. I have stopped for a couple months, but trying not to beat myself up about it Reassuring myself that I will eventually go back. It was fairly consistent but then loss momentum with the lockdowns.
I've picked up new hobbies that I find personally therapeutic. They are more creative hobbies and seem to let me have an outlet. I do a bit of photography, editting photos and making videos. I'm not great at it, but it does keep me busy and I enjoy the process.
I've started looking after indoor plants and force myself to go out for plant supplies or looking around at nurseries. It is better than staying in bed all day. I guess I'm more patient with myself. I almost think of myself as a giant plant that also needs nurturing, patience, feeding and time to allow growth. As long as the plant doesn't die, it can keep growing and adapting. So i choose to push on for now.
