RedHorseSenior Contributor
Is anybody out there?
I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way = anxious and afraid about everything but unable or too useless to actually DO anything to improve things. I know that I have it really good compared to others in that I am on DSP (for MDD, BPD, CPTSD) and don't have to worry about going to work yet I just want to check out once and for all. If it wasn't for my beautiful daughter who lives interstate with her husband and dogs I would be gone already... Not for lack of trying to be completely honest. Psychiatrist, Psychologist, GP and Carer do try to help but cannot do the "work" for me. I've tried just about every combination and dosage of meds available + DBT, CBT, inpatient treatment, ongoing therapy, phone counseling and living close to nature (the last has become a trial and now I'm just a sad, isolated loser on a mobile phone with dirty hair and fingernails). I'm sorry for whinging. I've typed and deleted so many posts. Oh did I mention the crippling indecision? I feel so alone
